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"Katsuki Bakugo. Make it fast or hang the fuck up."

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i absolutely loved it

[defendure]

That's normal, isn't it? I mean, I guess it might not be for you.

[ Izuku's giving Katsuki a purely puzzled look now. Going out to eat or whatever or hanging out with other people hadn't struck him as anything of an issue. He doesn't even know everything Katsuki does during the days and generally doesn't care - or he cares in the sense he's always interested if Katsuki actually tells him what he was up to, but he's never seen any reason to mind not knowing.

Katsuki spending time with other people usually is met with enthused acceptance - Izuku tends to think it's good for him and he's always excited about the concept of Katsuki making friends. Or...people he tolerates.

The things he does mind... ]

I don't care if you hang out with other people? You do it all the time, and I haven't told you not to, have I? Well I guess it's not all the time, you're kind of - you're not exactly a social butterfly...

[ Izuku's more social. He usually mentions when he's going out and gives way too many details if Katsuki shows even the slightest interest. ]

I just, um. I don't think dating means you only spend time with one person, Kacchan...

most excellent!

[blastedass]

Course it's fucking not.

[Usually he doesn't give a shit what other people do. That's their business. Now if it interferes with what plans he's had with one of those people, then yes they have a problem, but normally it's not something he cares about.

As for Izuku, since he's never dated before either, Katsuki's taking what he knows about Izuku's self-esteem issues and applying it to dating. If they do officially date, is Izuku so sure he's going to be able to see Katsuki out with someone else---particularly alone---and not find himself thinking Katsuki likes that person, or is interested in that person, more than him? He just took a question about his own date prospectives and basically turned it around to exclude himself from all fucking consideration!

There's a shift in perspective, he assumes, that comes from... well... dating someone else. Things are more emotional and more possessive. It can get messy. Right?]

Thanks for pointing that out, Deku.

[Katsuki's expression flattens. He's a social recluse. Furthest from a butterfly until he's dragged off by others in the class. Though there are some people he'll go out with here in Noctium.]

It doesn't. [Dating.] But your opinion on the other person changes when you date.

[Right?]

[defendure]

Um...how?

[ He's clearly missing some meta text explanations here, because Izuku doesn't quite get what Katsuki's getting at. He's trying, but... ]

[blastedass]

[THE FUCK DO YOU MEAN, HOW?!]

Fucking hell, seriously? You've NEVER been forced to watch some sappy chick flick with your mom?

[defendure]

I mean - yes, but...

[ He's getting more and more lost. They haven't even had their first date, they haven't said anything about their actual feelings that may or may not exist, but they're apparently discussing how dating would even work...

Izuku tries to organize it a little. ]

Why don't we just go about this the same way we talked about house rules? We told each other what we wanted from it and agreed or made changes based on what we felt like we could agree to, right? L-like, you said you didn't want anyone else living with us and I said okay but we made rules where they could stay in emergencies or on arrival for a bit. And I said I didn't want us sleeping with anyone else in the house and you said okay.

[ Maybe if they do it like that he'll at least know what the hell Katsuki wants from him. And vice versa. ]

So what do you want, and what aren't you okay with? Let's not label anything right this second, let's just...talk about where we're at right now.

[blastedass]

[The answer's "yes" so then how the fuck does he not know what dating turns into? Katsuki scowls at him, not even sure how to begin to go about explaining that and certainly not wanting to. Ultimately Izuku's the one to break the confused silence and he crosses his arms over his chest.]

Where we're at right now is a big fucking "I don't know; it's my first time". I don't even know if dating you is going to change a single thing?! We live together, we occasionally do things together...

[He gestures around them with one arm.]

What's the difference between this afternoon and previous ones? Asides from the fact we agreed to call it "a date"?

[He sounds exasperated, but at least it's general exasperation and not directed at Izuku.]

[defendure]

I...um...

[ Presumably, the fact they're sort of acknowledging they want to, but Izuku isn't sure the date can survive the accusation that Katsuki has feelings.

He's never dated anyone before either. ]

...I don't want you to go on dates with other people, either. You said you didn't want me going on dates. So don't you already know the difference, if you're okay with me going out to dinner if it isn't one?

[blastedass]

[Luckily for him, the hesitant stammer doesn't irk him (much) because Katsuki's feeling the same way. Conveyed with a snort and a muttered "See?" growled out the side of his mouth.

There is no difference! It's the same damn thing under a troublesome label. They've gone surfing before, swimming, drinking, exploring, eating, beaching, sparring, arcading---hell, they went to a god damn fucking formal dinner!! If anything was going to be a date, THAT ONE SHOULD'VE COUNTED!!]

You'd fucking think so.

[Again, muttered at both of them. Already he can see (knows) the difference, and how stupid it is, and the potential mixups thanks to this damn place.]

Probably not something you can explain.

[defendure]

I can...I can explain it...

[ Izuku stops fidgeting, or tries to. He knows how it's different for him. He does.

He just has to gather up the courage to say it. Some of it. He's still instinctively avoiding admitting to anything involving "like". ]

Kacchan, I don't want you to go on dates with other people. If someone else asks you out on a date I want you to say no. [ Because there's a difference, he knows there is, between dating and hanging out. ] I, I don't know what we're doing but I want you to only do whatever it is with me while we figure it out.

[ The part that actually matters to him is the part he's unsure he can say. ]

I don't, I don't care if you hang out with other people. And we both know sex happens, and I don't - I don't even care if it's outside of the gem stuff with other people. I guess I sort of - like you were saying the other night, I want you to try things with me first if you want something, but that's not...that's not the part that I care about most...

[ He lapses into silence for a moment, then, muttering, continues: ]

I, I um, none of this matters if you...feel like you want to do this with someone else. Or if you're okay with me doing it with someone else. We're still friends no matter what, and if you want nothing to change nothing has to.

[blastedass]

That wasn't--!!

[Shit! Too late! Fucking hell that was a GENERAL "YOU"! Not specifically targeting Izuku or even asking him to try his hand at explaining it! But in true Deku fashion, he starts rambling and Katsuki bristles in frustrated irritation as the words come out. So. Not. What. He. Fucking. Meant.

Listening to what he says, however, ironically clarifies some things in Katsuki's mind. It doesn't provide an immediate answer, but then again, he already knows the difference between going on a date with someone and simply hanging out with someone. Might not ever have experienced it, but he knows. Thanks to his old hag and her dragging him to one of those stupid movies.]

Hanging out and having sex with others is gonna fucking happen. I'm not gonna be attached to your damn hip and I don't want you on mine either. We separated the floors in our house for that reason.

[To give that clear indication. Together, but not joined. Even though Izuku and he do sleep in the same bed on occasion. ... ... Maybe getting a little more frequent occasion.

The "first time" stuff is something he still agrees with, though since he got into an argument last he spoke about that, he simply nods when Izuku brings it up. Does want to be his first sounding board, but not promising he's going to react favorably to everything Izuku brings to him.]

I'm not gonna go out on dates with other people. There's no one else I'm doing this with.

[That's easy enough to say. Mostly because he doesn't care enough about anyone else on this world to consider going out with them a date. Saying "no" will be easy. But for the coup de eta...]

So you really wanna be my boyfriend.

[defendure]

[ Direct hit. Izuku makes a strangled panicked little noise even though he basically said that in way more words than he needed to use to say...that. ]

I - I didn't - [ He definitely didn't say that. ] I know you hang out with other people and I know sex is a thing...it's the same for me, it's - if we were at home the sex thing wouldn't be okay but it's, um, it's -

[ Different here. Izuku would absolutely rather Katsuki be topped off on manna all the time than ever in danger of running low. He worries about it sometimes. ]

I spent way too much time worrying about you running out and - and something happening, when you were refusing to synch beyond the bare minimum way back when you got here. I would always rather you synch and be safe and have multiple sources of manna than insist you only synch with me.

[blastedass]

[Ch. Thought so. Katsuki frowns in thought at the revelation. Not really a revelation since he guessed at it well enough. Yeah, a whole lot of words to say one short thing.]

So you like me. Like that.

[That's mostly what he's getting from all of this prattle. Izuku has a hard time saying things too, though more out of awkwardness than out of stubborn pride like Katsuki. He tunes out the talk about sex since he's heard it before and knows it and Izuku's rambling again.

Boyfriends. It's obviously doable here. Just because they can't feasibly stay monogamous due to events and influences doesn't mean he has to agree to go on dates with other people. He knows the difference. Sex in Noctium is more an action than a committed action compared to most worlds. The whole manna thing is at the root of it, though he's loathe to admit he and Izuku make enough manna it'll be hard to run out of it at any given time. Unless they really blow through their stores. However that fucking works.]

The fuck were you "worried" was going to happen to me? I can stand holding some fucker's hand or standing shoulder to shoulder with a stranger until I get recharge.

[Katsuki makes a dismissing noise at him.]

You really think someone could take me against my will?

[defendure]

What? No.

[ Where did a stranger taking him against his will come into it...Izuku has that baffled, panicked look again.

He missed the liking question in sheer and utter confusion. He's pretty sure Katsuki just asked if he thought someone could take advantage of him???

He was talking more about the dumbass going feral or turning to stone outcome that Izuku flirted with. ]

sorry for the delay. i was in a "don't want to do anything" rut for the past two nights.

[blastedass]

Better not.

[Would've had some problems if he had. Well, at least a Katsuki's gonna yell at him kind of problem. The blonde arches a brow at the look he receives. What? Izuku well implied it!

Katsuki's of the mind he's far too intelligent and proud to let himself get turned to fucking stone by some stupid "god" and their dumbass requirements. Sure, earlier this year he would've been petrified than hold Izuku's hand, but he's matured beyond that point now.

Izuku should---should---know that, so obviously the only other thing he could be "worried" about happening to Katsuki regarding manna is someone trying to take it from him without his permission.

Obviously.]

oh no worries, i'm always willing to wait. i hope you feel better now!

[defendure]

[ Izuku's hand leaves his neck, drags across his face as he visibly stops himself explaining. It often does zero good to do so - Katsuki gets annoyed or tunes him out, or misinterprets him a second time, and he doesn't want to get stuck arguing about what he meant. Or explaining why he still worries. Katsuki probably doesn't want him worrying at all and likely never worries about Izuku here beyond potential villain fights and therefore can't comprehend it. ]

Um, we're going to miss our start time at this rate, we should probably get a move on.

[ He's not specifically looking at Katsuki, flushed and flustered still and trying not to freak the hell out about the rest of what his friend was saying. ]

yep, just digging out of the inbox, haha.

[blastedass]

[Is it a good thing Katsuki's not growling for an explanation and simply letting Izuku have the benefit of backing out of the faux passe? He's noticed both of them tend to fuck shit up when they try to explain a mistake or confuse shit, so best to simply have at it and then leave the subject to drop.

As for the worried part, he does "worry" about him getting in trouble and getting himself killed, hence telling him to move in with him to keep an eye on the idiot (and also because it's comforting to him, but hell if he's gonna say that aloud). But no, he doesn't fret over Izuku like some mother hen, wondering if he's going to get home at night or if he's good to go on manna. Izuku's a big boy and a hero and he can handle himself. For the most part.]

Just wanted to clear that shit up with you.

[And heads out of the park. Not sure if saying all that helped or make things "clear" at all, but he had his say. Moving forward now is what they can do.]

an avalanche?

[defendure]

[ Ironically Katsuki might be too generous there - Izuku isn't really good at taking care of himself, and the only reason he hasn't run out of manna since the first time he did is that Katsuki showed up and he fussed at Katsuki until they were regular partners. If they got in a big enough fight they didn't synch for a long chunk of time, he might genuinely fuck up his manna levels again out of distracted negligence. His Quirk is multiple Quirks and a genuinely big drain on his manna, and he isn't always careful about it if he thinks he needs to save someone.

Hell, he probably skips meals if Katsuki happens to not come home ever, not exactly on purpose but just sort of letting things he's supposed to do to take care of himself fall to the wayside in favor of just about anything else.

As to how much it helped...Izuku understands Katsuki wants this to be a date but might not have hit the correct reason as to why. It doesn't matter much either way. ]

I'm fine with this being whatever you want. [ It's meant reassuringly. ]

no, but three of them are novella tags. oof.

[blastedass]

[Maybe he is. But Katsuki figures Izuku has enough friends here and presence of mind not to die if something happened. He'd find a way to live and get manna, especially since it's easy enough to generate it with someone, particularly for those who make friends so easily. Wouldn't be anywhere near the same level and quality Izuku makes with him (cause he's so not proud of that, oh no) but he could live. Is Katsuki's belief.

Prove him wrong and he'll kill you.

WHY THE FUCK ARE YOU SKIPPING MEALS IF HE'S NOT HOME?! THERE IS NOTHING HERE STRESSFUL ENOUGH TO MAKE YOU FUCKING FORGET THAT!! Amazing you can get a shower and fucking dressed in the morning. Jeeze. Your mother would be fucking ashamed of your ass.

And he wants this to be a date cause he fucking wants it to be a date. They agreed to that. Sad truth is never of them quite know what a "date" is compared to their normal outings. Factually, yes. Emotionally, nope!]

Lets make it a murder spree.

[Nyeh nyeh.]

i would write a novella but my fingers would die

[defendure]

[ 50% of Izuku's stress comes from not being at home - the other 50% is from Katsuki. It's how it is, and he definitely doesn't like Katsuki like that or anything, it's just, you know, a huge crush. So it could be way worse, and might be if Katsuki keeps encouraging him like this.

But he just sticks out his tongue. ]

You would never actually go on one.

[ Threats aside...Katsuki's way too interested in being a hero. ]

i appreciate smaller tags since an inbox of novellas would be overkill <3

[blastedass]

[WOW! He should at least be at 60%, dammit. Slap his pride. And a crush definitely means liking like that kind of like. Hmph. Change his mind. But he's trying not to think about that despite more or less saying it should continue in such a manner. Cause he's an idiot for being so smart.

Not like being away from home doesn't stress him out either. He just... gets his stress out other ways. Like yelling or working very hard. Including the shit he needs to do to take care of himself. Like brushing his teeth. Dork.

Katsuki scowls at the tongue and quickly makes to swipe a finger on it. The annoying way, not the hot way.]

I did against those shitty robots.

[Jeeze, play along, Deku.]

they look big on my phone 📞

[defendure]

[ Izuku immediately tries to bite that finger. Wow.

Not hard, but yeah. ]

Uh-huh. So you want to become villains? I'm not sure I'm into that, but fighting you could be fun.

magnification phone magic!

[blastedass]

[Too bad. Too slow. Already swiped the blep.]

Like I'd become some dumbass villain. Besides, if you fought me, you'd lose. And a hero doesn't fucking lose.

basically!!!!

[defendure]

[ He'll pout just a little bit, expecting it to have zero effect. ]

I've won before, Kacchan. [ Still not often, but he gets better every time. Katsuki has to keep getting better too in order to keep that step ahead. ]

[blastedass]

[Keep that in there if you're not fast enough to protect it. Nyeh yourself.]

I know. That's why I'm never going to stop improving.

[Among all the other (unadmitted) reasons why Izuku's important to him, that's one.]

[defendure]

Well, neither am I! I'm not going to settle for being behind you.

[ They're no longer four years old, after all. He was okay with it back then. ]