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Date: 7/23/25 22:45 (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] loosestrifes
I... my grandmother showed me, before. But it's been years, so I can hardly remember.

( He frowns, still struggling to "spit it out," as Bakugo says. But as he draws the plush back to himself for easier holding, he shifts his weight a little and speaks. )

I'm worried. ( Honesty, even if he feels it sounds pathetic— it shouldn't be, right? He thinks he's learned he shouldn't feel pathetic for this. )

Not just that he'll kill me, but that he'll kill you, or Dabi, or the both of you, just to get a reaction. ( He breathes out a sigh. ) When he was here, he did something that made it feel like his mere presence was suffocating... I couldn't even attempt to look into it before he was gone.

He wants me to suffer. It would be one thing I'd be was targeting me alone, but if he comes after either of you purely to get to me—

( What's he supposed to do, at this point? He glances to the side. )

I wonder if dealing with him alone, if just... dying, might stop him. I don't want it to go past me. I've told everyone else to pretend not to know me, you know?

Date: 7/24/25 03:21 (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] loosestrifes
But what if he pushes himself too far? He's already saved me from that guy's brother once now. I've been making sure he's taking care of himself, but I don't want to be the reason he pushes himself to his own destruction.

( It's a little more raw, the way he speaks right now, voice wavering with genuine unease. He's sure when those two come together it's going to be terrible. But— but maybe Bakugo is right. If they go after them separately, it should be fine.

It's if they try to use each other to draw the others out that has him feeling sick. )


I'd know if it was a spore. It was most certainly an aura of some kind, a crushing one... I felt something similar with his brother for a split moment, but I didn't have the time to focus and see if it was my imagination.

( But he's leaning towards not, now, with how that felt. )

I... don't want to call Dabi next time, because I'm worried. But being able to call him in the first place was only thanks to your training. I threw him off just long enough, that time, but I... I don't want to call you, either, because...

( Wavering between serious concern and hesitation. He doesn't want to die. But he doesn't want the people he cares about to die, either. And for once, the latter feels even more important? )

They're not going to kill me quickly. It was temporary amnesia to show him I was serious, not to mess with me, in self defense, but now it's like this cycle that won't stop.

Date: 7/24/25 20:43 (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] loosestrifes
( Ugh, the whiplash of insult and praise... In the end, it weighs out as positive. He knows his will probably seems poor to Bakugo, because he's opened up to him more than many others. Because he's seen past his angry fronts. So, alright, work on that... somehow? He can at least recognize that he's stronger, too. He would have died back then otherwise.

Feeling a little too anxious with the crowds still around, he moves to take steps away, eyes flicking to make sure Bakugo is following him without him having to reach out and drag him like he normally opts to. Spared, this time. )


I can, yes. I don't enjoy the idea of permanent memory loss, though, personally. ( He frowns a little. He has his own memory struggles, after all. ) But it's possible, with the right conditions.

I only wanted to show him the capability of it, to scare him off. ( But that sure worked in reverse. He thinks back on Chobe talking about killing him repeatedly to see if he stops reviving, and he goes a little paler for it.

But, as they move away from the crowds... )


I'm aware he was trying to mess with me, words and all, but... ( hesitation, he's trying ) He said it's just your job to care about someone like me.

Date: 8/6/25 06:04 (UTC)
loosestrifes: (61)
From: [personal profile] loosestrifes
( Bakugo is the worst at softly reassuring someone, sure, but honestly? This sort of explosive threat almost works better. Something too soft would feel fake and awkward, whether from Bakugo or someone far more gentle, so... Esikko can only laugh, a short breathy thing that has him ducking his head a little. He can't help but feel relieved. It's stupid, this is stupid. All of it is, but... )

Okay, okay. ...Thank you. It's not like I... I mean, I don't know why I care, but...

( There's a sting at his eyes, one he hopes goes unnoticed as his free hand reaches up to wipe quickly at them. No falling tears, just some teary eyes— his stupid suit is having a field day with this. He just exhales a little upon failing to finish that sentence.

But he's moving on just as quickly with his words afterwards. )


Condensing it into something portable... is an interesting concept.

( He's not going to be able to sleep well alone in his suite with Chobe's threats on his mind, so maybe having a goal like this will help. He scrubs a few more times at his eyes before dropping that hand back to grab onto the silly little plushie, chin lifting, eyes forward rather than on Bakugo. )

I have plenty of notes, all written in a journal, but after staring at them for years, it's hard to see them from new angles. Maybe... we could include it in our training?

( He's absolutely not one to pull punches, so if he can just figure out how to make his magic work in cases like this... It could make a difference. )

Date: 8/8/25 05:06 (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] loosestrifes
...Memories between lifetimes don't work like that. Most of them deteriorate, or crumble away, like paper in water. The ones that do come forward take time, and can feel smudged around the edges, or unclear, or never fully form.

( That doesn't even account for how the timelines stacking up make it difficult for him to remember what event he experienced in which life, when they're significant enough to leave marks through time and space. He spares a glance to the side, at Bakugo, relaxing a little more the further they get from the carnival. At least it doesn't feel like Chobe is going to come back out of nowhere, like this. )

That's why I created my journal, as a way of using a spell to carry records through time and space. Unfortunately, the magic has to be secure enough to prevent time from ruining it, so unlocking past entries can be just as difficult. I've gotten a number of them by now, but there's plenty I haven't been able to get to.

( But it's there, instead of forgotten. He just has to get to it. And in the meantime, he makes more notes, new notes, tracks it all. )

There are a lot of requirements for my spells, but a unique angle can help me find some shortcuts, right? I think you're good at that sort of thing. ( A little defensively, like he doesn't want to be viewed as stupid for asking for the help. ) ...I'll come by, so thank you. I could pick up dinner on the way, if you'd like. For your trouble.

Date: 8/9/25 04:14 (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] loosestrifes
( He notices that expression, how he must be lost in thought, but Esikko doesn't pester him about it. Pestering him about himself has never really gone well, and he's kind of trying to hold onto this vague sort of softness in the air right now, even if it's hardly there at all. The idea that Bakugo came to see him right after telling him what happened, even if he was no longer in danger... That's a little soft, isn't it?

He's keeping this all to himself.

And it's fine, anyway, because at the same time, those words are causing him to bristle defensively, a little. )


I do take good notes! The fact that notes or records transfer over at all is through various loopholes that I discovered myself, you know! Objects aren't supposed to exist in multiple spaces and times. I'll show you, okay?

When I bring your spicy gyoza.

( That last sentences backs down again, just as much as he'd puffed up. He's grateful, after all, and appreciative. He's also... kind of a nerd when it comes to things like this, so the idea of being able to sit down and brainstorm any of this with someone who isn't going to fall asleep about him talking about it or spew nonsense without understanding is getting him hyped up. )

I'll stop by my suite and grab it. ( A pause, as he tries not to sound too eager or too dismissive of other things Bakugo may have going on. ) What... time should I meet you? Do you have other plans before then?

I mean, I think that guy will leave me alone at least for the night, so it's not like I have to have you escort me, or anything, if you have other plans first.

Date: 8/10/25 05:09 (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] loosestrifes
They're protected to make up for that. It's precisely why certain pages become difficult to "unlock"— if they would present information that could create instability in the reset, regardless of whether or not I realize they could, they're blocked from forming those sections.

( Pink Midoriya is coming out... Just kidding, he's not nearly as awkward, but the confidence and excitement is there just behind his words. And it's interesting, maybe, that this is one of the few areas that Esikko has strong enough feelings on to put his foot down about, that his willpower pushes him through regardless of his body's physical ability or his knowledge in each timeline.

He's about to go on about how he formed that elaborate spell and the specifics on how it works, but Bakugo's next words catch him off guard enough to prevent that. Thankfully.

Because... he's touched? It's the exact sort of comfort he looks for without knowing what to ask for, and in Bakugo's gruff little package, it comes across genuine, not forced, not some fake nice bullshit. So there's a brief little flash of that surprise, of something like relief, and then he's pointing his eyes forward again like he's almost unsure of how to respond to that news. )


I'll... save the rest of it for after we're there, then. ( After they settle, after some food, maybe. He doesn't have much of an appetite after all of that, but he rarely does. He'll still try to eat. But then he can make sure he sews up this little plushie nicely, and go over magic... It sounds nice.

Maybe it's okay to rely on him a little, to not overly stress about Chobe knowing they're acquainted. Maybe Bakugo will be safe, after all. It's what he'd like to believe, between all the anxious noise in his head. Strange, how he's gotten here, when he used to find the idea of caring about anyone so laughable... )


I shouldn't take long grabbing it.

Date: 8/11/25 03:04 (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] loosestrifes
S...stop judging my spell when you don't have the first clue about magic! Things aren't as simple as you're making them out to be!

( Huffy, but he's prepared to yell about this, and the comment under Bakugo's breath about a better magician? Gets the sharpest glare Esikko has ever managed, although one a little puffy more than anything genuinely upset. Accented, of course, by the little stomp of one foot against the ground when they finally come up to the stairway door, rather than the elevator, like he's some sort of angry rabbit. )

Just wait and see about making one yourself, then you'll understand! ( Hmph!! He hesitates only a moment before rushing to catch up to Bakugo on the stairs, clutching the plushie with one hand still as the other reaches out to catch a sleeve of Bakugo's, just ever so slightly...

Seems he's worried about being left behind even if he'd acted like he'd been fine separating moments earlier. )


Anyway, things can speed along faster if you check on the rabbits for me. I pull out more hay for them at night, and make them small salads. ( the only thing in his fridge, right now, is greens for the rabbits. ) Then I can order the spicy gyoza as room delivery from red cardinal...

Date: 8/11/25 05:23 (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] loosestrifes
( He's torn between the urge to curse Bakugo by turning him into a very angry toad, and clinging to him happily because he got invited for a sleepover... Truly, this mood whiplash is insane. Thankfully, it's only the puffy irritation that's clear on Esikko's face, but some of the rest of it appears in the way he hooks his fingers at the crook of Bakugo's arm, using it to keep him from moving up too quickly. Please, have mercy, he gets tired going up stairs...

Anyway, his free hand holds out his little Bakugo plushie to lightly bonk it against the back of his head. )


You're shit. I'm someone who shouldn't even be able to use magic with my health, so when I explain the basics to you, you'd better appreciate my effort. None of this carries through from life to life, but I learn it from scratch, without prompting, every time. It's not like reading instructions simply gives you the power and ability to do it. It's an art.

( Even cursed to defend his own spell!! He'll show him that it helps, he'll explain it!! Without it, he never would have gotten as close as he has. Hmph. Meanwhile, at least he's not wilting down and sulking about being criticized with this topic. No, he's defensive, he's proud of his work in this. )

And some of us have beauty routines, you know? I'm skipping it, though, so don't get all huffy just because I take a moment. I want to use your bath later, too. You must have one, right?

( Please don't be a shower only suite. )

Date: 8/11/25 22:27 (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] loosestrifes
I don't want your pity, stuuuupid.

( This petty arguing is a lot nicer, actually, than the insecurity and guilt that had been plaguing him just minutes earlier. Subtle clues show that— the more relaxed way he walks, the way he's pausing less between words and sentences, the relaxed tone he's taking, even when annoyed. He's happier, even if he's showing it with angry little defensive comments.

Comments that come promptly to an end by the time Bakugo yanks him closer, his stunned expression replacing any other thought that had been on his mind just prior. He's been on the receiving end of this before, and so he reacts quickly enough— his arms quickly grip around Bakugo's shoulders like on reflex, without even noticing that he's asked the same, that silly little plushie still clutched tightly in one of his hands.

Of course, that doesn't help the shock of the actual movement. He ducks his face lower to tuck it into Bakugo's neck, like that might protect him from falling off along the way. He doesn't want to see, it's scary!! )


Wah—?!

( Not a scream, but a startled noise all the same, for the start of it. And by the time they land for the final stop, he's still hesitant to let go, even as he stomps a foot on the floor, trying to get some of his anxiety out. )

Could you give a little more warning before doing that?! You're always so impatient! ( As if he's one to talk. At least by now, he allows his arms to slip free, clutching the plushie to his chest instead like it's a life preserver. Okay, he only needed a second, he can keep walking, geez, some people have weak hearts, you know!! )

Honestly...

Date: 8/12/25 20:42 (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] loosestrifes
Of course I don't.

( With a huff, he follows after him all the same. This time, when their steps near his own door, he takes a few hurried steps ahead just to shove his Bakugo plushie at Bakugo himself. )

Hold this, and you can give the rabbits their salads if you'd like to speed things up. I'll grab a bag.

( With a gentle tap of his Watch against the room, he opens the door. But interestingly, there seems to be part of his routine where he peeks inside and checks something about the space before entering it completely. He's walked in on unwanted visitors before, despite how that's supposed to be impossible.

The rabbits are downstairs in their own room, but Esikko heads up the stairs to his own bedroom once they're inside, his steps hurried. At least he's not trying to waste time. It won't take long for him to pack a little bit. Night clothes, next day clothes, his journal, a few magic necessities... )

Date: 8/13/25 01:21 (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] loosestrifes
...In the fridge! It's labeled.

( Sure enough, posted on the fridge is a helpful little schedule for the rabbits. They have hay full time, in the rabbit room, but it looks like Esikko has a rather detailed list of what vegetables they need for their best health, the amount per serving, etc. They're plants, after all, so he knows those well. He can't cook, but he can apparently make a nice little bunny salad, and the greens in his fridge look to be great quality.

But from upstairs, Esikko calls out. )


There are "security cameras?"

( It sounds foreign coming from his mouth, the idea of it, the words. But he's doing something upstairs that sounds kind of loud, with a few thumps as he moves things around. He's packing his nightly routine bag efficiently, okay!

Anyway, cute little bunnies Chaos and Order will start happily chasing each other in circles when Bakugo delivers the salads. They're used to being spoiled. )

Date: 8/13/25 18:23 (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] loosestrifes
( Great Explosion Murder God Dynamight does NOT have the right to judge any names, thank you very much. Chaos and Order are perfectly suitable bunny names, and their elaborate name plates over the little setup he has for them to be able to eat and use the restroom is themed appropriately!! They're apparently friendly enough, too, since despite being jumpy at sudden movements, they seem to have no problem headbutting at Bakugo's hands for more leaves or attention as he sets their salads down. They're incredibly soft. There are little toy stacking blocks and cups around, too...

But it sounds like Esikko is coming back down the stairs about now. )


I didn't know it was an option. It's like the Watch video? ( He's taking mental notes... While ordering their food to be delivered to Bakugo's suite, of course. Via UberTweets or something?? He doesn't know, but it's been handy for hiding in his room. Spicy gyoza for Bakugo, and... as much as he wants to just order a dessert, he also puts in an appetizer order for himself so he can have real food. He eats better with company, or at least tries to.

He peeks around the corner, a bag now slung over one shoulder and a brown bound journal held to his chest. )


...So, are you going to have me sleeping in a guest room, or do I at least get to be warm, tonight?

( It's not cuddles if it's for warmth...... shut the fuck up )

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