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Date: 8/31/25 05:00 (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] loosestrifes
( Slumped as he is, Esikko isn't taking notes, but he does take mental note of all that Bakugo is saying. It's his usual sort of deal— words that are both inspirational and frustratingly blunt. Words that aren't cushioned by falsities or niceness that does nothing for him, and instead smack back his thoughts with a realistic sort of harshness he can't help but appreciate, even if it irritates him all the same. Because that's the sort of thing he needs, right?

The opposite of people like Kirma, who would tell him he doesn't need to fight, that they could do it all for him. To strip him entirely of every ounce of autonomy he could have. Bakugo's words would rather empower him, push him, all while backing him up...

And he's not so blind as to ignore the occasional hypocrisy, of course. Bakugo is stubborn enough that Esikko can't help but feel that he doesn't know enough about him, his feelings, his internal struggles. That he can guess to many of them, based on what he's seen, but that getting the man to ever admit to any of it would be like pulling teeth. Is that a testament to their bond not being close enough, or is it more just that Bakugo tries too hard to be strong enough for everyone? He's beginning to realize it's the latter. And so he leans, after a moment, to put himself closer to Bakugo, subtle as it is, eyes trailing over the items laid out on the table. )


Maybe... the problem is that I've always been trying to view how to do these things alone.

( Quietly, thoughtfully, he's clearly in his own head, but it's a little more productive this time. Not self-deprecating, just reflecting. )

Stealth and trickery, is it? I'll try to focus entirely on my strengths, then, and not think about where I lack. ( Hard as it is. He's not sure he can stop, but he'll try. ) So, I'll rely on some of you to help fill in the gaps. That's fine, isn't it?

( He's still so quiet... But he turns his head, finally, glancing over. )

Perhaps one day I'll be able to fill a few gaps for someone else, too. ( He wants to be useful, more than anything. )

Date: 8/31/25 20:34 (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] loosestrifes
( Bakugo has been the target of a lot of sap lately... But how is he supposed to help that? He went from a world where universe after universe of trying and clinging to any small amount of attention or kindness, no matter how twisted or toxic underneath, to a place where he can actually have people who understand him, who are there for him, who he can rely on? It feels so foreign, so freeing, like a weight is being lifted, and it's hard not to get a little starry eyed over it, even now. Maybe because he's so used to being told or shown that he doesn't deserve this, to be shown otherwise is just warming...

And there are others who have shown it, of course, like Dabi. But all here, and it makes him not want to return to his own home at all. He'll find somewhere else. And the more he thinks on it, the more that seems... possible? Allowable?

Thankfully, Bakugo interrupts his thoughts from daydreaming too much further. The idea of poison nail polish sparks something inside Esikko enough that it lights up his face, eyes blinking wider. )


I... hadn't thought of that. ( It's genius? How had he not thought of that? He holds out one of his hands to admire the nail polish on it now, curious. Well, it's a new idea to him, relatively speaking, and he had been introduced to it as purely aesthetic, with some skincare levels of aid. He was only thinking of it looking nice with his hair and being further away from what his father would like, when he'd first decided to try it. ) I suppose, so long as I'm capable of making an antidote quickly for anyone I'm intimate enough with, that could work.

( He'd hate to kill or paralyze someone unintentionally, especially mid sex. )

Nail polish like this wasn't a thing, where I'm from, so I only started using it here. You're so smart, Bakugo~ ( Praising him because he loves this idea, singsong and all. )

Date: 9/3/25 06:06 (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] loosestrifes
Ow?!

( It's an overreaction for the drama of it, of course, as Esikko whines about the whap on his head, hands reaching up to clutch at it as if it's a serious injury. It is not. It didn't really hurt— but no one usually dares to hit him, slapstick or not?!

It's kind of nice, not being treated like some fragile thing you can't even interact with. But that thought flutters away as quickly as it came, because he's busy taking in all of those ideas. He stands, after a moment, to grab his journal and jot them all down, pacing left, and then right... )


Okay, okay! Maybe I'd think of my strengths a little more if some people would list them a little more generously, hmm?

( He's joking, and that much is clear by how his gaze doesn't linger on Bakugo. His steps keep him pacing, and he tosses the journal back on the table. It's a little hard to focus on strengths when so many mocking voices sound in his head listing his faults, but... it's gotten better, here. He can work past this. He thinks. )

Anyway, perhaps I'll leave some magic in your suite, too? ( A curious glance flicks over to Bakugo, asking for permission as he moves back over to him. Now, when he sits, he tries to crowd into his space. To share a chair, or sit on a lap, or whatever he can get away with. He did this once before, ages ago, he remembers... )

The lines work better with some distance between their main points. If I draw symbols in yours, and Dabi's, and my own... you know, it works better. And in the meantime, I'll continue growing my plants.

I already have an assortment of useful ones... I grind some into powders, make others into sleep aids for the few people who seemed interested... I guess it's possible.

Date: 9/4/25 03:55 (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] loosestrifes
You're warm.

( A simple response as he settles in, cold as he is, in Bakugo's lap. He's bony, but at least he's lightweight, even as tall as he is. He holds up both hands, approximating the size of something, like... cantaloupe sized? )

Maybe this big, on the floor somewhere, beneath a bed, or on a wall behind a painting. You know, just a sigil, which would require the set up of a larger setting but leaves only a small marking in exchange.

It may smell like my blood for some time afterwards, but it fades. ( He'd just need maybe a couple in each, to help direct things? He has to map them out later, but... Anyway. )

In any case, yes, I do. Multiple methods of it, in fact. I can use each and every bit of any plant you can think of, truly, and perhaps even some you don't know of. If there's a problem, I can solve it with a potion, or a supplement, or a powder or cream... You know, I did offer these things in my earlier days, but no one took me up on it.

( So he stopped offering, and kept them mostly to himself. )

Since before I even bothered with magic, I was fascinated with plants. I studied them closely, so I'm familiar with horticulture deeply. When I use my magic to create plants based on descriptions, it's actually my knowledge of their systems as a whole that leads me through it, rather than magic itself.

Date: 9/4/25 21:47 (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] loosestrifes
...I used to make similar vials to your grenades. For myself, and for Hiyori. He stopped asking for them when he got angry with me, and I've already learned he's gotten help from you instead, now.

( Again, his hand lifts, fingers showing the length of the tiny vials he would make. )

One type would explode on contact hard enough to break the glass. Another type would create a sort of smokescreen, temporarily, with the same impact.

I realized that repeatedly, the sort of people who come for me are ones that can grab my wrist before I can manage to even throw them. I began to only make them for him, but now they're... ( Useless? That's what it feels like, anyway. Who would want them? But he stops himself, shifting one arm to hook around Bakugo a little, as if he's not close enough by sitting in his lap. )

So... I could do the same for other effects, of course. But it's frustrating, when I prepare and still get overpowered. That's why I wanted to learn more maneuvers to break free, though.

Date: 9/6/25 06:18 (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] loosestrifes
There are a handful of plants, at least, that have various uses for seed pods that explode, though most of their exact methods are due to things like ripening or tension. But, there is a plant from my world that I use— the oil from its seeds acts as a vital component, as it can produce a gas that builds up intensely when mixed with hydrogen peroxide.

It requires a violent sort of strike, so carrying the vials around isn't dangerous, but a harsh impact starts the reaction.

( He exhales softly, thinking as Bakugo continues to offer ideas. He's starting to feel sleepy, which is... nice, in a way? But a little frustrating all the same, because this talk feels productive, and Bakugo feels warm, feels nice. But a lot happened today, he supposes, and maybe the relaxation of having someone who can watch out for him is making his body actually calm down from its usual insomnia. )

My painting self ate a lot more gods and was barely alive. ( He frowns a little, thinking on it. Right now, he wants to describe that version of him as "hardly himself," but... the truth is more that the him sitting here in the resort is the one barely like his old selves, right? But it's because of the opportunities, the people, the scenes, right? He feels sick thinking about it. ) There are "shortcuts" I could take... by using the Divinity, the thing that makes my blood so unique.

But it causes pain, it causes madness, it threatens to allow that thing to take over again, and what happens is— like those roots you tore out of me. There are times I've allowed myself to use it too casually, when I cared less about what happened to myself. ( He pauses, pinching lightly at his own fingers, quietly thinking. ) But, I suppose... there are one or two people I don't want to worry, here.

So I'm trying to avoid that. ( Dangerous, life threatening god powers are an entirely different sort of magic that a normal human shouldn't have access to. His body barely allows it. )

But a mark that reacts on touch is something I could do, at some level... If you mean on the floor, or a wall. I've done that before. A "trap," set to react to a stimuli.

Date: 9/7/25 04:25 (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] loosestrifes
( At those first comments, moving through the conversation from nitroglycerin to no shortcuts to kicking his ass, he smiles. It's genuine, softer than his default; of course he knows there are no more shortcuts, and of course he knows they'll kick his ass. Bakugo is one of the two people he's sure have some amount of care for him here, after all.

A genuine care, for whatever reason. Not the twisted kind that stands to gain something. He's not sure what he's done to deserve it from anyone, but he's not about to turn it away.

His thoughts are interrupted by that last idea, though. On his skin? He looks thoughtful, suddenly, as he compares Bakugo's thoughts to the reality of it with his magic. Could it be possible? Certainly. But how would it work on a body like his? Traps might mean he can't even get touched in pleasant ways, which could serve to be a problem here...

Mm, but if he applies more specifications, maybe? Is there magic that can read intent, buried somewhere in his journal? Or maybe something he can do to switch it on and off? There's also the issue of the mark itself on skin. The methods—

Bakugo tells him to brush his teeth and he can't help but laugh, a soft closing of his eyes allowing him to soak in this last bit of comfort. Aww, he's being kicked off his lap. )


I can't sleep on you? ( Lightly, like a tease, he leans in to kiss at the side of his head. It feels easier to leave these quiet little signs of affection, of appreciation, when he's teasing along with it. Something to excuse it, maybe...

And he slips away and off him just as quickly, grabbing the bag he'd brought and moving towards one of the bathrooms. )


Fine, fine. Let me think on what I could manage. Be right back~

Date: 9/8/25 04:56 (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] loosestrifes
( For what it's worth, he does spend the entire time he's getting ready for bed thinking about it. What kind of thing he might be able to do, the sort of triggers it could play from, the effort involved in it, the anchors he'd need in the resort. If those ones, the ones on his body, are the ones he keeps anchored in the rooms of Bakugo and Dabi's suites, it would be even safer, right? The one thing that bothers him the most, that has him thinking the longest, is the real answer to Bakugo's question of how he lived these lives without thinking of stuff like this: he doesn't remember.

He doesn't remember if he did, or didn't. He doesn't remember why he would or wouldn't. There are so many gaps, so many faint traces of something almost like memories that he can't quite reach, that when the question arises, it just feels uncomfortable.

His eyes are even heavier by the time he finally finishes brushing his teeth, washing his face and changing into something comfortable. Honestly, if he weren't so tired already, he'd want to take one of his usual baths— but it's rare that he gets tired enough to feel like he's going to fall asleep, and he wakes early enough on default that he can just steal one in the morning.

Right now, every moment away from someone he trusts feels weirdly anxious, and so he hurries through his usual hair care and then pokes back through the suite to find where Bakugo has ended up by now. Whether he's still in his bathroom or in the bedroom by now, Esikko announces himself with a few little knocks before poking his head in, stepping in shortly afterwards, almost shy in his motions. )


Do these larger suites ever seem too quiet to you? Or are you one of those types who enjoys it.

( The solitude, the silence. Bakugo's so loud, though... He uses his question as an excuse to step closer, fully intent on crawling into bed with the other when it's clear he's allowed. (Obviously he is, but look.) )

Date: 9/10/25 04:31 (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] loosestrifes
...So you want to be the loudest person in any room.

( Teasingly, Esikko watches the other man set himself up in the bed and follows, slipping in easily on the other side. It's fine, if attention isn't being drawn to it, then he's not going to say anything himself. For his own pajamas, though he used to opt more often for things like button up silk, he's gotten a lot more used to the casual "fashion" of the Peacock, and is in a loose fitting long-sleeved t-shirt that hangs nearly past his shorts. He thinks the occasional showing of a shoulder is cute, when it slides, and he likes to look cute, what can he say.

His bare legs slip easily beneath the sheets, and a little shamelessly, move gradually over to brush up against Bakugo's warmer ones. He's icy as always. )


Seems right.

Date: 9/11/25 03:24 (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] loosestrifes
My legs get cold faster.

( Poor circulation... Though, usually, having cold legs doesn't bother him as much as, say, when his face gets cold? But still, the warmth of Bakugo's legs leaving in a jerk makes him frown a little, like he was looking forward to tangling them together.

He settles, for now, for just shifting them a little under the covers to generate some heat. )


It's just from being separated for that short time, you know~? I got all cold. ( True, honestly. But he shifts, next, to roll onto his side, peering at Bakugo in the dim lighting. ) Don't you get warm at night, the way you are? Let me use you like a heater.

Date: 9/11/25 21:59 (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] loosestrifes
( ...Okay, he'll put these on, but only because the idea of borrowing his pants sounds strangely appealing? It's kinda cute. So with a laugh, he slips out of bed just enough to slide his shorts off (he is Not wearing both!!) and slip the sweats on instead. Shorts get dropped aside as he slips back in, automatically reaching back out for Bakugo. )

But then I'd get too hot, you know? It's always so uncomfortable at night.

( Bakugo doesn't seem to get it... that he'd prefer company in bed. But that's endearing in its own way, and so he just shamelessly tangles in. Let him spoon... )

It's easier to share with someone. Better?

Date: 9/13/25 04:48 (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] loosestrifes
Plenty, lately! That boat, for example, was terrible... My health is poor enough that I can't sweat enough for proper cooling, so any amount of intense weather is difficult to handle, even if I might still feel cool to the touch.

( Trivia of the day. He hates the summer just as much as the winter. Moderate climates feel best... Or, alternatively, having a bed partner who he can alternate cuddling and rolling away from!

Isn't this nice? He thinks it is, all snuggled up against him, nuzzling in against Bakugo as one of his legs bends up further, still sandwiching his leg in. A full cuddle. Deal with it. )


Hmm... But you're comfortable like this. I might even be able to sleep well, tonight~

( Playfully... But he means it, too, behind the singsong tease. He feels exhausted, after everything from today, and having Bakugo so close is like a security blanket, right now. Their temperatures match up well, too, and he's not the type to be overly clingy, so Esikko knows that it's not going to be too much. With that, he allows his eyes to drift closed, even if he says a bit more. )

...Thanks again, for everything.

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