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"Katsuki Bakugo. Make it fast or hang the fuck up."

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[defendure]

[ He puts it on the chair next to them, then. It's not what he wants right now, at all. Instead he shifts in Katsuki's grip, winding his arms around his neck again and settling in closer. He doesn't think he's going to be shoved off right now, no matter how annoying he gets about it.

He feels warmer, but it's hard to offset everything else. There's a surge of anxiety to his usual low level, and there's so much he's afraid of losing. It's only been three days but it feels like longer. Because it was longer. Because he really feels like crying but doesn't want to cry. ]

Promise? [ It's half said against the collar of Katsuki's winter costume. Small and quiet. ]

[blastedass]

[Katsuki leans back a little to brace himself as Izuku starts climbing into his lap and grabbing for his neck, making him duck his head so he's not pulled too hard. Yeah, no shoving right now, though the clingyness gets a silent growl and eyes wandering off to the side like he's resigned to 'suffering' through this. Katsuki wraps one arm around Izuku's back to hold him close, the other one left free in case he needs something, so he simply rests it over the other hero's hips for now.

Izuku still feels cold and Katsuki turns him more towards the warm wall beside them. He's sure there's a big fat ugly cry waiting inside Izuku's face, not sure if it's ready to come out yet or not. The guy's holding himself together more or less better than Katsuki expected for him getting back.]

Promise. [The initial want to bite out a "when have I lied to you" or "when have I broken a promise" that he normally snaps at other people, gets halted at his lips. Because Izuku's the only one who can actually reply "No" with a serious expression to that comment. Normally Katsuki's not a liar or promise breaker, apart from obviously sarcastic ones that are fake right from the start and anyone dumb enough to believe him simply had it coming. But in his and Izuku's past...] You're gonna be all right.

Because I'm here.

[defendure]

[ Yeah, their past has broken promises and lies littering the road...but despite all of that, Izuku usually believes Katsuki when he says things. And Katsuki apologized for all of that twofold. Your strength and my weakness - things he never expected to hear from the one person who always looked at him like he didn't belong for the longest time.

There's a wet laugh, but no tears yet. It's probably only a matter of time - he's always a ticking bomb when it comes to emotions. ]

Stealing lines to look cool, Kacchan?

[ Izuku's stolen that one before himself, though. ]

Sorry...

[blastedass]

[He's far more honest with his rude feelings now. Though saying something looks like shit when it's obviously not is basically Bakugou speech for "looks good but fuck if I'm saying so" and you learn to speak it after a while. Shut the fuck up about the double apology! That wasn't his intention at all! Damn Noctium...

Katsuki still isn't about to go stroking Izuku's hair or doing more than be a growling guard dog in the face of the guards and slowly-adding collection of newcomers. They're getting the dregs of them now, so it's not like it's going to be a packed flight.]

I always look cool, shitty nerd.

[He leans back against the wall, letting Izuku rest more securely on him.]

You steal it too.

[defendure]

I know. [ About the stealing. Maybe the other part - he doesn't clarify. Izuku's speaking softly, so as to not be overheard, although that wouldn't be the end of the world.

Katsuki's letting him cling in his lap. That's pretty damn soft for him. ]

I have to tell you everything that happened...

[blastedass]

[It's not soft; it's logical for this setting. Izuku's half frozen and weak and Katsuki is warm and strong with the heat coming through the wall for help. He can cling. No one's going to look at them weirdly for it. Not like there's a fire going in the middle of the fucking shuttle to huddle around.]

Why don't you do that when you're throat's not thawing out, stupid.

[defendure]

[ Might be logical, but would Katsuki let anyone do this? Izuku doesn't know the answer for sure, but assumes he's getting a little bit of a pass on some things. ]

It's important though. [ Though if Katsuki just points out he has the same memories he'll shut up; otherwise he's going to detail everything. ]

[blastedass]

[Unfortunately, despite him saying he'd never let someone else do this, if Katsuki was faced with a classmate of his freezing to death, he'd end up letting them get close for bodywarmth if they couldn't make a fire. But he certainly wouldn't be holding them this close or talking in such a quiet tone.

Katsuki does not point that out yet, nor does he let Izuku detail everything. Because if he tries talking more, Katsuki's going to put a hand over his mouth and give him a firm look.]

I know. We'll talk about it later.

[Now stop wrecking your throat. Have some tea and rest or he's going to ask for a fucking tranq, you stubborn nerd.]

vibrates

[defendure]

[ He may have to ask for it because it's Izuku and he won't sip more tea while he's stressed out.

His mouth moves against Katsuki's hand, disgruntled. ]

[blastedass]

[Katsuki gives his jaw a little squeeze, then lowers his hand, not trusting Izuku to keep from biting him if he's really in the mood. But he doesn't want him to be talking either, so asks one of the guards for another cup of tea. The calming kind.

He looks down at Izuku again.]

Feeling any better?

[defendure]

[ Better... ]

I feel warmer. [ He's not sure about better, although finding Katsuki (*being found by Katsuki) means he does feel a hair less frantic. It helps that Katsuki's still treating him like they're...them, and things haven't changed.

Three days isn't really long enough to be thrown away or replaced but he has some minor trauma there. It's fine! He doesn't need to address it. ]

Are we going home?

[blastedass]

[Warmer is better so he'll take it. So long as Izuku's not having a panic attack or trying to get away, he's not going to bother trying to sedate him. Though he also doesn't want him to talk too much either, not sure what sort of damage the blizzard did to his throat. No point in giving himself a raw trachea just cause he's stubborn.

They'll address all that later.]

After they check you out in the station and put you back in the system, yeah.

[If Izuku pauses to look and notice, Katsuki's in his winter costume, so... that's some indication. Cause he certainly hadn't brought that with him the first time around and as far as the other boy knows, Katsuki never had one made.]

[defendure]

[ His brain did notice that and then the rest of him is sort of foggy brained just from the weather and exhaustion. Katsuki's had less sleep the past day but is holding it together better. Of course, Izuku was going on over sleep before he was recaptured, but still. ]

My phone pictures...

[blastedass]

[He's going on his third day of no sleep now, but yeah, still holding it together due to stubbornness and adrenaline. (And lingering anger / frustration.)

Not sure how long Izuku went without sleep when he was a feral rabbit. No one's talked to him much about the details of that time.]

You were only gone for three days. They're all still there.

[His were.]

[defendure]

[ Maybe they'll talk about it here. Either way, Izuku settles down. Doesn't get out of Katsuki's lap or let him go, but...he'll shut up. Maybe doze the rest of the ride? ]

[blastedass]

[Maybe. It's likely not a topic Izuku much cares to elaborate on, considering the things he did during it. Albeit well intentioned, the things he said and thought, the people he abandoned and hurt...

Katsuki keeps him close as the shuttle takes off, not having to drug the other boy to keep him silent. Good. He preferred not to.

He carries him out of the shuttle once it's redocked to the station, getting a text from Shoto telling him he's on his way on the next shuttle. Shouldn't be long so Katsuki's at least going to take Izuku to the medical station to help him get checked out.]

[defendure]

[ No, Izuku doesn't care to discuss things beyond confirming when they're both from. He regrets a lot of what he did and said - and although he instantly apologized, he hates that he hurt anyone. He's never liked hurting other people, ever.

Doesn't argue about being carried, though he probably would if he realized how little sleep Katsuki's running on. Would have argued to carry him instead, which would have been the world's dumbest argument...

A check out is going to reveal the minor start of frost bite - easily fixed with the medical technology here - and stern orders to eat more since he's skipped a lot of meals lately. ]

[blastedass]

[They came to him knowing it wouldn't be easy to convince him and all of them were prepared to drag him back home by force. They'd get hurt, sure, they knew none of them would die by his hand, but they weren't scared to get down and dirty if it meant grasping Izuku's hand and showing him he didn't have to keep shouldering the burden alone.

And thus, they were successful. Coming together and taking down the most powerful Quirk in the world, held in the hands of someone who had failed to convince himself he truly did want to be alone.

Good thing they don't have that argument cause then Katsuki would've crammed his mouth with the drugged tea. Then carted his snoozing ass through medical, customs, and all the rest of the shit there.

Yeah yeah, he'll get him treated and warmed up, then promise to shove some food down his throat later on once he's more rested. After all, Katsuki's going to hang out in a room and wait for Shoto to get back before the three of them leave and head for home.

Shoto's gonna stay with them. No arguments accepted.]

[defendure]

[ Izuku doesn't argue about it. The guest rooms exist for a reason and he doesn't mind them being filled, especially when Katsuki has that same look Izuku feels viscerally; like he's closing ranks, drawing up a defensive line. He's still not that talkative on the way back - his chatterbox is broken for the moment, or maybe he just doesn't think his questions will have answers.

He's tense, more than a little, until they're in their house. His room.

Then he finally rasps out something else. ]

Don't go.

[blastedass]

[Katsuki's actually been expecting those two words. He's felt them in the way Izuku's hands were locked around his neck, felt them with the way his shirt was crushed into the other boy's palms, and how reluctant Izuku was to let him go enough for the medic to check him out and then for the officials to get him all registered again. (He gets his phone back, all the data still on it cause it's only been three days.)

He does let Shoto tend to Izuku for some of the trip while he handles the driver and instructions for the cab. Before finally getting back home and setting their classmate up in the bedroom. Shoto's been to their house before so he knows his way around. Plus he can wander if he likes.

Or go make tea. Yeah... he'll make tea. (BUT DON'T TOUCH ANYTHING ELSE IN THE FUCKING KITCHEN, HALF-N-HALF!)

Katsuki looks down at Izuku and shakes his head.]

I'm not.

[defendure]

[ Those two words have been threaded through every interaction they've had in Noctium. Maybe even further back than that. No matter what he's done, Katsuki's never really been able to shake Izuku. Up to and including setting his dreams on fire and saying every mean and petty thing he could think of to hurt. Shrapnel from a teenaged ego larger than their city.

Right now it's just more pointed, more desperate. Like if Izuku lets go right now, he won't get Katsuki back (again). He only just got back to the Heights; before that, his contact with the pros was there but minimal. He didn't have a base or a safe house; he didn't have anyone with him except the people who are always with him.

He feels them now, although their voices are quiet. His Quirk houses more souls than just his own, and all of them know this is something for Izuku alone. He doesn't think of them, doesn't see them out of the corner of his eyes, as his hands twist in Katsuki's uniform front. ]

I know it's selfish...

[blastedass]

[Katsuki watches his silently as those hands slowly wind in his costume's jacket. Mouth hidden behind the high collar and the heat of his own breath washing down the front of his neck. Izuku looks frazzled and rough, not as bad as he had when they dragged him back to U.A., but it brings uncomfortable recollection back to it. Someone who had born the weight of the world out of some insane misplaced and unbalanced sense of sacrifice. He knew why he'd done it, he knows why he thinks like that, but he doesn't get it. Has to accept it though. Has and will. Something Katsuki'll wrestle with for his life if he thinks about it.

But for now... He shakes his head and reaches up to wrap a hand around Izuku's own.]

It's not selfish to want to be with someone you care for.

[What was selfish was running away from all of them, thinking they couldn't handle their own god damn safety. It was selfish to force them to wonder where he'd gone, to worry about his safety. It was selfish to take all the burdens they were supposed to hold as heroes together and run away with them to horde all for himself. That was selfish, to leave them all behind.

Katsuki won't let him do that again. Neither take the burdens of everyone or be alone. In the end, no matter how much he admires him, Izuku will never be All Might. And he should never be.]

C'mon. You need a shower.

[defendure]

Trying to keep you is selfish...isn't it?

[ He does always take the burdens on alone. It's not only his failing, but Izuku is prone to it, tends to automatically shoulder the worst of things. Right now, his definition of "selfish" is asking Katsuki for anything he thinks might not be freely given. Or just...for everything that is implied with staying.

He's so bad at asking people to care about him. It never really feels deserved. Katsuki's a large part of why that is, because despite those apologies, the past hasn't been altered or erased. It's still alive in each of them, the ways they grew up, together and apart.

His hand still grips Katsuki's tightly, even if he isn't sure he deserves it. ]

You do too.

[blastedass]

Talk about this when you're not a half-frozen Dekucicle.

[Because there are different levels and variations of "keep" in this place and Katsuki's not sure Izuku's all that up to braining the emotions needed for that kind of conversation. It might be as simple as him wanting to keep him close for the night, which Katsuki already agreed to before Izuku even showed back up. Going through what he did, seeing Izuku leave... He doesn't want the other boy out of his sight for a while. Not that Izuku has reason to go off all feral loner bunny in Noctium, but...

He's got a very tired brain right now. Izuku went through a lot. He'll never get the sight of his eyes out of his head. The way they looked. So blank, so dark, so empty, threatening to be both blazing with fire and yet completely burned out simultaneously. Katsuki never wants to see these eyes again.

Katsuki tightens his hand around Izuku's again, then gives it a tug so he'll let go of his shirt and instead can fully wrap his hand around the other boy's. Locking fingers together and holding onto him as he looks down at him.]

I don't care if it's selfish or not. Look at me. Touch me. Whatever you have to to know I'm here.

[defendure]

[ His eyes still look more tired than they did. There are circles under them that haven't yet gone away, though they're a bit less heavy than they were when Katsuki found him the last time.

Katsuki laces their fingers together, though, and Izuku's mind stumbles for a second before his shoulders slump a bit. Tension's still there, but some of it drains.

His eyes catch, searching. ]

...okay.