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"Katsuki Bakugo. Make it fast or hang the fuck up."

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[blastedass]

Why the fuck do you think I chased after you when that fucking Hand-Face asshole was coming for you?

[When Izuku was so damn determined to go out there alone so no one else would have to get hurt by the guy literally hunting his damn Quirk. He tried to help him, stubbornly refusing to leave. Not to mention the constant help in his training under All Might. He's been helping him here too, from sparring to the rest. So... excuse him for giving a speculative frown about Izuku asking that question.

But beyond knowing the other boy makes it out of the war okay, he has no idea what happens to him afterwards. How it affects him or what it causes him to do.]

Oh.

[He just "won't snap". Like it's that simple to decide. Maybe it is. Katsuki always say he refuses to give up or lose, both with similar conviction. Confidence is one thing. Blind determination is another. It's all speculative, but he's seen how Deku operated in the past. It's not going to surprise him if things escalate.]

You make it sound like I'm not going to fight All For One or Shigaraki...

[defendure]

No...I make it sound like I believe there's an aspect of all of this only I can or want to take on, because you've told me you don't think it's worthwhile. You'll help me when it comes to a battle, but right now you're not even considering a solution where you help me try to help anyone who could be helped.

[ Some middle ground where they figure it out together seems difficult when they're so opposite right now and Izuku doesn't expect Katsuki to agree with him completely but...

His tendency to take on the world alone isn't going to be helped my everyone refusing to help him with one aspect of it. ]

[blastedass]

I'm trying to open your thick head up to the reality that you can't help everyone! You're so fucking hung up on sacrificing yourself and believing you can help everyone, I don't know what the fuck's going to happen to your brain when it hits you that you can't!

For all you fucking know, you're going to have to kill All For One to stop him.

[He turns to face the other boy, eyes hard and burning.]

Can you do that? Can you save someone by not saving them? Or helping them? Can you just fucking stop someone?

Permanently.

[No, All Might didn't kill All For One. But Katsuki doesn't believe Shigaraki is the same kind of person as All For One. All For One has plans, reasons to keep people around, to stand at the top of society and rule it.

That fucking psycho on the other hand? Just wants to destroy everything.]

[defendure]

Did I say I wanted to try to help All For One?

[ Like - honestly speaking, he would save anyone in front of him, but he does understand when people have gone too far to ever change. And he knows even the people he wants to help would still end up locked up, and he accepts that. ]

I've already taken people down without helping them. But I don't think that addresses everything it should, Kacchan. There are - there are some things that are messed up about how we do things, but we can't address them if we don't see them.

[blastedass]

You don't have to say it. I've seen it in your eyes too many times.

[He honestly doesn't think Izuku's stupid, but he does think... everything he's said before. Blind, independent, self-sacrificing, trusting, zealous, someone who would potentially run himself to ragged embers in his question to solve all the world's problems by himself.

Yes, he's already done that, but Katsuki's pretty sure it weighs on Izuku's chest he never got to talk to them or help them. He was left only with the recourse to fight because they hadn't been interested in chatting with him. A hard sigh jettisons from his lips and he rolls his shoulders before continuing to walk.]

Yeah. There are. A lot of messed up shit. But I don't think there's a blanket fix that addresses everything. Don't think there can be one. Even if we see them.

[World's not perfect. Never will be.]

[defendure]

I'm not asking for a blanket fix, Kacchan. I'm saying...

[ He takes his time this time, before speaking. Walking as he thinks, so quiet.

Asking for help has historically not often worked out for him. Asking for understanding...the same.

It hasn't gotten him down enough to stop moving forward, but it probably does contribute to his habit of handling things all on his own. ]

I'm asking you to support me when I try to understand others. I'm not saying my way will always work or always be right. But the times it has - aren't they worth it? I don't want to do less just because it's easier. And it's - it wouldn't be the same burden if other people were willing to share it.

[blastedass]

[There's an in and out swerving issue going on here where they're talking specifically them and talking generalizations, with Katsuki erring more towards the latter than the former in terms of fixing shit. He's irritated at what's been happening in his world. Thought he'd go right out of middle school into the world of heroes, kick all the competitions' ass, blaze onto the real world, blow up villains all over the walls, save the nation from all worry, and surpass All Might in an explosion of victory the likes of which the world has never seen!

None of that... has happened. And he's starting to think none of it will.

Because the world's not like that.]

...

And how am I gonna support you in trying to understanding others?

[Surely not if someone's attacking them. Because then he's going to defend himself and fuck your want to understand. You can talk to them after he's beaten them into the ground.]

[defendure]

[ No, when has he ever told Katsuki not to defend himself? In battle Izuku will always defend himself too - unless it would hurt someone innocent. He would never do anything to hurt a civilian. ]

Give me a chance to try. Like you did with the guy with the poison Quirk. I'm not saying don't disarm people or don't take them down, but I don't...think I like the kind of heroics where the only thing anyone listens to is a rule book.

[blastedass]

[Well there could be a villain who starts shouting his or her sobstory history while attacking them, like some of the dramatic ones are prone to do. Exposition during action. It'd be hard o listen to them talk if Katsuki's over there detonating explosions and trying to slug them into unconsciousness on the jaw.

For example.]

So stand back and let you ask a question.

[Or do a normal Deku and jump between him and the villain. Ugh. Fucking ass. Still willing to sacrifice himself and take a bomb to the face for someone.]

You're gonna get taken advantage of. You know that, don't you.

[defendure]

I don't think I'm as bad a judge of character as that.

[ But...yes. He knows that sometimes this is going to fuck him over. Trusting people always has that risk. Helping people always has that risk. ]

I'll be your idealism if you'll be my cynicism.

[blastedass]

Not sure my brain can handle your kind of idealism...

[Since that's one of the main things he has no idea about when it comes to Izuku. How he manages to be the way he is. There's a limit to "I'm stubborn" before it turns into "You're crazy". Katsuki thinks the other boy's passed that by now.]

Fine. You can try to talk, if I'm with you. If they're already on the offensive when we get there, no promises.

[defendure]

[ Oh, he's definitely crazy in that shounen protagonist way where you believe people more than makes any sense whatsoever. It's a stubborn sort of idealism that persists even when he's ground away. ]

That's all I'm asking.

[ To try.

...they may have to revisit this later. ]

[blastedass]

[You worry him sometimes... Katsuki frowns at him, still not looking like he agrees with the deal he's brokering. But there's really nothing to do here save for talk about it.]

Fine.

[They may have to. Especially since he runs his hand up the back of his head in exasperation.]

You know we're gonna forget all this fucking stuff when we go back.

[defendure]

...yeah.

[ That's how it's going to work if they don't find a way back that's different. Izuku knows that. ]

But...maybe...I don't know. There's always a chance.

[blastedass]

[He doesn't think they will. What if they spent two years here, got super stronger than they are now, and suddenly pop back into the previous battle with no time passed, but still two years stronger?

That's some fucking gameshark code cheats there.]

We'd fuck up our timeline if we did. Probably. I don't want to go back to school knowing I've had your dick in my mouth.

[Top concern. Yep. Doesn't sound too irritated by it though. More sarcastic and amused.]

[defendure]

[ All of this...WOULD make things odd back home. Or - he has no idea what they would be like.

He doesn't want to think about it that hard. ]

I don't think I can act like none of this matters even if it might not exist someday. Or there'd be no reason to talk about anything, would there?

[blastedass]

[Well for one thing, he'd be more than happy to lord over a lot of their class he had wings at one time and could fucking fly. then have to do some major damage control when people saw the damn bite marks on Izuku's neck.

... okay so maybe all of this should stay here. What happens in Noctium stays in Noctium. Yep.]

I'm not turning into a nihilist, Deku. It's nice to know when shit gets awkward though.

[defendure]

I guess? There's just some stuff I would like to stay, so I try not to think about it too much.

[ He expects that feeling will get stronger the longer he's in this place, because Izuku...well, he gets attached. ]

[blastedass]

Yeah. I'd like to tell that old hag I lived on my own in my own fucking house!

[Because wouldn't THAT be awesome! Though remembering living on his own and having to go back to live in the Heights would be a pain in the ass...]

[defendure]

I kind of like where we're at, too.

[ Not...the sex...like, yes, that's kind of not the worst here but more so - ]

I feel like we've been getting along better. I like it.

[blastedass]

[Tsk... he'd been trying to avoid that line of though, but Izuku went straight for it. Not like he could completely disagree with it either. After their experiences and all.]

You're the only one from home I'm in normal contact with. Barely see the others. I don't even know if they're here most of the time.

[It's kind of annoying. He'd had minor interactions with Endeavor and Hawks, would've liked more, but... Shinsou tends to focus elsewhere and the rest are likely gone.]

[defendure]

Well...me either. But...even if other people show up who we see more, I...don't want to lose this. I missed you.

[ Not...before Katsuki got here, although yes probably that, but he means.

Like.

From the ages of four to sixteen. ]

[blastedass]

You were only here a fucking month ahead of me.

[Is what he says. But almost immediately, he knows that's not the way Izuku meant that entirely. There was more longing than that.

But he dodges it, not ready to talk about or acknowledge that to his face.

This is one time he really misses All Might. He was the only one he could talk to about this growing regret and guilt. The only one safe...]

[defendure]

[ Izuku...lets him dodge it. He rarely brings up their shared past in a negative way. Just...nostalgia for those positives.

He does reach out for Katsuki's hand as they hit the beach proper, though, eyes on the water. ]

Anyway, the newest one is "smokescreen".

[blastedass]

[Well that's a topic jump back to what they should've been talking about in the first place...]

Smokescreen. So you generate smoke or explode in one big cloud?

[Psh, not too special. He can do a smokescreen of his own. Hmph.]