just can't stop this place from taking all the shit that's mine. can't fucking keep a hold of anything. i'm just fucking useless even here, you know, he wouldn't even look at me? couldn't fucking look at me. could have killed him and he would have popped right back in like a fucking daisy all of it pointless, none of it worth it, and then he disappeared before i got the chance and now mister is gone, and he kept me grounded, and now i can't do fucking anything if i stay in this place i'm gonna rot to death, rot to death in some fucking casino.
it's gonna take a lot more than one person to wrench this bastard open.
you're not useless. i'll tell you that as many damn times as it takes.
[he knows what "useless" can do to a person. never again... just gonna ignore the comments about endeavor. it's for the best. but he listens all the same. to his venting. to his feelings.]
we're not gonna die here, touya. we'll live in this shithole or we'll go home.
i'm not compress. but if you need someone to ground you, i'll do my damnest. i won't let you rot or die. even if this fucking place erupts into hell.
[call him a delusional hero. call him stupid. blame it on pity if he has to, untrue as it is. he's stubborn. but a hero isn't someone who gives up when someone needs help. villains included.]
can't just live here for the rest of forever. can't let him be alive somewhere i can't get to him. i know you have your own shit you want to do, but easier to be a hero in this place than it is to be me, or shigaraki.
you're still a hero, and you probably want us all dead. what happens when i'm beyond saving? then what?
i feel like i fucking fucked everything up and i don't know what i'm doing anymore
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Date: 6/2/25 20:09 (UTC)just can't stop this place from taking all the shit that's mine.
can't fucking keep a hold of anything. i'm just fucking useless
even here, you know, he wouldn't even look at me? couldn't fucking look at me.
could have killed him and he would have popped right back in like a fucking daisy
all of it pointless, none of it worth it, and then he disappeared before i got the chance
and now mister is gone, and he kept me grounded, and now i can't do fucking anything
if i stay in this place i'm gonna rot to death, rot to death in some fucking casino.
fucking hate this fucking place
anyway, whatever. keep me posted.
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Date: 6/2/25 20:36 (UTC)[... damn.]
it's gonna take a lot more than one person to wrench this bastard open.
you're not useless.
i'll tell you that as many damn times as it takes.
[he knows what "useless" can do to a person. never again... just gonna ignore the comments about endeavor. it's for the best. but he listens all the same. to his venting. to his feelings.]
we're not gonna die here, touya.
we'll live in this shithole or we'll go home.
i'm not compress. but if you need someone to ground you,
i'll do my damnest. i won't let you rot or die.
even if this fucking place erupts into hell.
[call him a delusional hero. call him stupid. blame it on pity if he has to, untrue as it is. he's stubborn. but a hero isn't someone who gives up when someone needs help. villains included.]
i'll let you know what i find.
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Date: 6/2/25 20:46 (UTC)can't let him be alive somewhere i can't get to him.
i know you have your own shit you want to do, but
easier to be a hero in this place than it is to be me, or shigaraki.
you're still a hero, and you probably want us all dead.
what happens when i'm beyond saving? then what?
i feel like i fucking fucked everything up and i don't know what i'm doing anymore
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Date: 6/2/25 20:58 (UTC)this shitty bird's gonna get sick of us or die first.
how's it any easier?
urusei. i don't want anyone dead.
i'd drag you back over "beyond" point and save you anyways.
if you're talking about compress, you didn't have anything to do with his going home.
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Date: 6/2/25 21:00 (UTC)forget it, i don't know why i said anything to begin with. listening to me isn't part of the deal
so whatever
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Date: 6/2/25 21:14 (UTC)[a singular goal, forever out of reach in this place, compared to a generic goal accessible here, even if it's limited.
burned down to a single focal point, now forced to stop and wait. because he doesn't know how to do anything else. can't feel for anything else.
he refuses the type the words foolishly popping into his head. ridiculous.]
i made you a promise.
[why did he say something? ... likely reasons he knows but doesn't want to admit.]
i'll call you as soon as i find him, if you don't first.
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Date: 6/2/25 21:40 (UTC)you're the first person i thought of - to ask for help.
to tell about it. to trust with something like this. like all of it.
don't look down on it. don't take it for granted, either.
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Date: 6/2/25 21:53 (UTC)i won't.
[he never wants to disappoint or fail anyone. but there are people he doesn't want to let down even more than others. touya's one of them.]
thanks, for trusting me.
[if you need anything... he holds it back. touya knows.]