[ It's not as if Yuji hasn't given Bakugo his fair share of shit to listen to and bury himself under: it's not as if he hasn't confessed too much to him over time. It's difficult to reign it all back in once it starts coming out, isn't it? Difficult and impossible.
So he's glad. If he can be a sounding board to Bakugo, too... That's good enough for him. Even if he had intended this to be a cute conversation about hero names, maybe it was something Bakugo wanted to talk about. ]
it can mean stuff to you too
it's not like he died for me or anything, but thanks.
they gave us strength, and memories, and things we need to remember going forward. i might make more mistakes, and i might do the right thing, or something else would happen, but at least no one will ever say i didn't do my best. i always do the best i can, no matter what happens. i'll get up and fight just as hard in the future too.
[Yuji's probably told Bakugo more about his problems than the blonde has, mostly because Bakugo sticks his nose in Yuji's business and the sakura's been too kind (or distracted) to shove into Bakugo's. They both don't like to burden others with their issues, probably for different reasons though.
But despite that, there's a silent sense of relief to have gotten it out to someone. Someone not in the know, who can look at it from an outside perspective. And it's probably about time he trusted Yuji with some of his own troubles. Bakugo's not the perfect, powerful, boy he likes to present himself as.]
i know.
[People who risk their lives, or die protecting, in one way or another, do it for everyone they care about. All Might knew what he was sacrificing for one child, he knew the world was watching...]
that what makes you so strong. you don't give up. you only lose when you quit. i won't fail either. and i won't stop until i've won and the people i care about are safe.
you always do your best, don't you. you're a reliable guy, itadori. i'm glad people will say that about you.
thanks. i won't stop believing in you either.
[No matter how many times he has to remind him. A frustrated sigh as he drops on his back.]
hopefully neither of us will have to face this shitty world ending again. it'd fucking suck if it became an annual event.
[ Unloading himself, sharing how he feels - it's difficult for Yuji, when he feels such a well of sadness and guilt that he can't swallow back or hide. The truth is that he feels like he deserves to feel this way for his own sins and mistakes. For messing up when he did, as many times as he did.
It helps, to talk about things. In small doses, to limit his own exposure. He still has nightmares, he still feels divorced from reality sometimes, but it's getting better. It's improving, slowly but surely. Time and time again, it'll get better. ]
that's how i feel as well. i've got people i want to save, so i'm not going to give up until i know i've done it. that's my determination right now.
we're both going to be reliable people and we're gonna do our best. i know that. i believe in us, dandelion.
[It's different for Bakugo. Showing how he feels, revealing his mistakes and frustrations, crashes into his pride. Someone who strives to be the strongest there is, to have people look at him and know there's no way he can lose... How can he let those people see him as weak? How can the strongest be vulnerable? He has to be perfect, he can't let anyone down, including himself. No one relies on broken, weak, useless, vulnerable, to be their hero.
The shame and pain of having someone see him as those things... Bakugo hates it.
But over the year, he's matured in some of that. To the point where it's not the end of the world to talk about things. Rare, quiet, quick, and only with people he trusts enough to feel close to. His nightmares and guilt are mostly his own, his to deal with and resolve without help. But now he's allowing himself the reality that help isn't so bad.
It takes strength to admit you need help.]
don't give up even after you've saved everyone and done it all. you're worth saving too. even from yourself.
i know what you promised, but it doesn't have to end like that. cause i'm not giving up on you.
i'll listen. whenever you need it.
[And Yuji heard him out this time. Bakugo would only do this with someone he trusts intensely.]
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the onions will not leave me alone
Date: 4/12/24 02:49 (UTC)So he's glad. If he can be a sounding board to Bakugo, too... That's good enough for him. Even if he had intended this to be a cute conversation about hero names, maybe it was something Bakugo wanted to talk about. ]
it can mean stuff to you too
it's not like he died for me or anything, but thanks.
they gave us strength, and memories, and things we need to remember going forward. i might make more mistakes, and i might do the right thing, or something else would happen, but at least no one will ever say i didn't do my best. i always do the best i can, no matter what happens. i'll get up and fight just as hard in the future too.
i believe in you, bakugo.
here's another bushel
Date: 4/12/24 03:06 (UTC)But despite that, there's a silent sense of relief to have gotten it out to someone. Someone not in the know, who can look at it from an outside perspective. And it's probably about time he trusted Yuji with some of his own troubles. Bakugo's not the perfect, powerful, boy he likes to present himself as.]
i know.
[People who risk their lives, or die protecting, in one way or another, do it for everyone they care about. All Might knew what he was sacrificing for one child, he knew the world was watching...]
that what makes you so strong. you don't give up. you only lose when you quit. i won't fail either. and i won't stop until i've won and the people i care about are safe.
you always do your best, don't you. you're a reliable guy, itadori. i'm glad people will say that about you.
thanks. i won't stop believing in you either.
[No matter how many times he has to remind him. A frustrated sigh as he drops on his back.]
hopefully neither of us will have to face this shitty world ending again. it'd fucking suck if it became an annual event.
shakes you
Date: 4/12/24 03:33 (UTC)It helps, to talk about things. In small doses, to limit his own exposure. He still has nightmares, he still feels divorced from reality sometimes, but it's getting better. It's improving, slowly but surely. Time and time again, it'll get better. ]
that's how i feel as well. i've got people i want to save, so i'm not going to give up until i know i've done it. that's my determination right now.
we're both going to be reliable people and we're gonna do our best. i know that. i believe in us, dandelion.
thanks. for hearing me out all the time.
is shooketh
Date: 4/12/24 03:47 (UTC)The shame and pain of having someone see him as those things... Bakugo hates it.
But over the year, he's matured in some of that. To the point where it's not the end of the world to talk about things. Rare, quiet, quick, and only with people he trusts enough to feel close to. His nightmares and guilt are mostly his own, his to deal with and resolve without help. But now he's allowing himself the reality that help isn't so bad.
It takes strength to admit you need help.]
don't give up even after you've saved everyone and done it all. you're worth saving too. even from yourself.
i know what you promised, but it doesn't have to end like that. cause i'm not giving up on you.
i'll listen. whenever you need it.
[And Yuji heard him out this time. Bakugo would only do this with someone he trusts intensely.]
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Date: 4/12/24 04:07 (UTC)so unwavering fist then
[ This chat got heavy fast... But he's not mad about it. He appreciates Bakugo all the more for it, and feels a warm place in his heart. ]
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Date: 4/12/24 04:13 (UTC)But fine. He isn't going to chase after that. Had enough of the heavy stuff himself. Yuji knows.]
the number 2 hero, unwavering fist.
[Look, Aoyama's hero name is the "Shining Hero: Can't Stop Twinkling" so sure.]
you'll be a hell of a hero.
[He's glad to have been able to vent. Feels closer to Yuji even more now. That warmth inside... yeah. Shared.]
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Date: 4/12/24 04:16 (UTC)no.2 because you'll be no.1 right?
it's on, dandelion. 💪
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Date: 4/12/24 04:28 (UTC)damn right.
you want that spot, you'll have to beat me for it.
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Date: 4/12/24 04:29 (UTC)no subject
Date: 4/12/24 04:30 (UTC)