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"Katsuki Bakugo. Make it fast or hang the fuck up."

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[blastedass]

[He's not going to take that bet. About killing. Doesn't seem like death is much a bother here in Noctium. Anyways...]

I know that. But if he kills someone while he's here, then that person's death is on my hands for not taking out a KNOWN fucking murderer.

Hawks had to make that choice too.

[Of course, if they'd killed All for One instead of leaving him in jail, so much of this current mess they're in could've been avoided!]

[heir_conditioned]

Then it's on us both, I had a chance to kill him, too and I didn't.

Hawks made the wrong choice. But it was in battle, not at first sight.

[True, if they even could.]

[blastedass]

I know.

[It's hard to put into words. Hard to even say. But the feeling remains. He had the chance, he knew he should've, and yet...

Villains don't have to deal with these kind of fucking chains! (They have to deal with plenty of others.) It's frustrating because he knows, if Shigaraki kills someone here, unlikely as that will be, it's going to be on Bakugo's shoulders.

Or so he'll feel. Even if LOGICALLY he knows it's not technically his fault.]

If Hawks didn't do what he did, we'd be dead.

[heir_conditioned]

Then, if it comes to that we will bear responsibility. Both of us. Murder isn't what we do.

[It must be especially tough on Bakugo, there's so much bad blood there, rightly so.]

It's unchangeable and not worth the disagreement, nor the shift from my point. You did the right thing.

[blastedass]

[Is there a difference between "murder" and "killing"? Because murder tends to be selfishly motivated while killing is more self-defense or safety. But if you kill to protect what you want, is that a selfish motive? Death should never be an option.

But... He frowns at the phone and leans back on his bed.]

I know.

[Again.]

But I can't bring myself to want to save him for myself.

[heir_conditioned]

[Every situation is different, every reason or need is different, but it's all the same in the end. A life is lost and that's why it should be the last resort, not the easy one.

'I know' flashes on his screen again and Shoto sighs.]

He's done a lot to us, all of us, but more to you than I care to not take part blame for. If you felt nothing I would be concerned for you. It's that you feel like this I know things will be alright.

If either he or Touya misstep, then we'll take them down and hand them over to the diamond guard. I promise you.

[blastedass]

[Not the easy one. Bakugo knows the answer to the question, but the frustration remains. The guarded "I know" remains on the screen because he doesn't have an easy time opening up to other people. Besides, both of them know this discussion is pointless in the end.]

What the hell were you hoping to do by attacking your brother? Trying to take him out or trying to force him to accept you?

[Different topic.]

[heir_conditioned]

[It's not a pointless situation if Bakugo needs to talk about it. Not to Shoto, at least and he knows that Bakugo is deflecting in the only way he can. Bakugo also knows the answer to his own question regarding what Shoto was trying to do.]

I didn't attack him, we agreed to meet and fight. If I won, his wager was accepting me. It was the only chance I had to try to make his life better. Obviously, neither of us won and we both lost.

[blastedass]

[Heroes don't kill. They shouldn't. And yet there is always a "but" at the end of that statement. When there comes a time when a choice has to be made...

Anyways, that can haunt him some more later.]

Idiots. That's not how you get people to accept you.

You can't make his life any fucking better unless he starts wanting it to get better himself. And not in his fucked up idea of what "better" means.

[heir_conditioned]

[They shouldn't and Shoto knows one day that for one of them, or maybe all of them, they'll have to make a hard choice. He doesn't want to think about it, not now and doesn't want Bakugo to have to think about it either. If this is what he's deflecting to, then so be it.]

No, it isn't. But all he's had is people nurturing his hate and I did no better. I agree, I was an idiot, but I needed to try.

[blastedass]

It's fucked up if telling someone you care about them just makes them hate you more. He's not your brother right now; the only time he is is when he can use it against you.

[You jumped for him too fast and too hard, Shoto.]

But he's not dead, so you can try again another time.

[heir_conditioned]

He is my brother. If he hates me or not, if he's a villain or not, nothing changes blood.

[It's true, he did and it's because he was sure he would win. Or that there'd be some sort of... something. Or... No, it was just hope there might be. Even he knew some of what he had done or was going to do was fruitless.]

I'm trying to decide if I'm even the person to try. I don't want to give up. I won't give up. I just need to assess.

[blastedass]

No shit, physically he is.

[But thing is, Dabi doesn't want to be his brother unless it's convenient for Dabi. That's what Bakugo feels. Shoto's reaching out for a burning coal and thinks he's going to somehow turn off the burn.

It's not something Bakugo can understand, being an only child. Just like how he can't understand Izuku's Quirklessness or the bullied life he led. And he knows that.]

Assess away. He's a captive here like the rest of us. Just don't piss him off by running after him so much.

[Kind of like how Izuku always kept running after Bakugo, which, yup, pissed the blond off.]

[heir_conditioned]

Does that make my father any less a father just because physically he is? He's my brother, Bakugo. I'm not proud of what he does, but physically or otherwise it's who he is.

[He's already been burned by it. Fires as hot as hell twice and he can't imagine how that felt for Touya either. But, just as much, it doesn't matter. He's got to think of it objectively.]

That's what I'm assessing. I say I want the best life for him and then I present him with one of the things he hates the most. Myself. If I was anything but a selfish person, I would just leave him alone, he doesn't want to be saved.

[blastedass]

Maybe someday he'll treat you like one.

[The argument is from two sides that don't connect. What makes a brother? What makes a father? Biological ties can only go so far before that father or brother is just a god damn title. But it's not his place to say such more than what he has.

Perhaps he's irritated, even defensive, that his classmate was put through so much due to clinging to those ties. Unfortunately in Shoto's case, "hero" and "family" overlap too much in his life to every separate them.]

Guess in this case it's not bad to be selfish. And stubborn. What's your definition of "saving" him?

[heir_conditioned]

Maybe.

[That's a huge maybe, but Bakugo's words are often two fold and the hidden gem under it is an encouragement from Shoto's blond friend not to lose heart just yet. Further solidified by the other text.]

I want him to have the life he's denying himself at this point. Even if it's without my father and I, I don't want him to have to live in the shadows or do what he did back home just because it's what he knows.

[blastedass]

[He'll advise him to be cautious, criticize his recent choice, and even suggest he take a fucking step back and break for a bit, but Bakugo won't be telling him to "give up" on this. He's not stupid. He knows when a person should be told to can it and leave and when saying that is fucking pointless. This is one of the latter cases. Shoto won't give this up.

Only, he has a feeling the end results won't be what Shoto (and Endeavor) really want. This isn't some fairy tale ending on the horizon. Endeavor robbed the world of a hero who could've been great and in return, created a wreck that you can't just.. bang or cajole back to being what could've been.]

Did you tell him that?

[heir_conditioned]

[Bakugo's advice is always the best advice, Midoriya is good at it too and Shoto is lucky. But it's true, his father robbed the world of what could've been an incredible force for good. There had to be something that could've been done to tame Touya's flames from burning him alive. Maybe Shoto is doing more harm than good trying to help his brother.]

I told him that I know he's a villain, I know he's a murderer, I know he's a threat to me and I know how he says he feels. I also told him that while I don't condone it, I accept it and that I saw a human in that video. So yes. I told him he doesn't have to be that anymore. I should have taken someone else with me but I was afraid he'd think it was an attack, so all I have is my word that's what I told him.

[blastedass]

[Could've been. Probably was. But that's in the past now. Bakugo had spoken to Dabi about such a thing, even agreed that it's highly likely the Support Course could come up with something that would help him not burn himself. But the thing is, Dabi's made his choices and there are going to be consequences for them. Same as everyone else. It's not that Shoto's doing harm to his brother for trying to help; it's that trying to help someone who doesn't want to be helped can lead to two people drowning instead of one.

Can't say "try to befriend him" can't say "keep your distance" can't say "beat him up". Shoto's in a tricky place right now. What he can do is simply... let himself be available without forcing the availability offer.]

Could've said that over the damn phone. Now that you've both had your go at each other, better not be planning on having another throw down again.

[Like he said, he's not gonna come visit at the hospital if it happens again. Well, technically if Shoto incites it. If Dabi just up and drops him and tries to torch him, then yeah, that's all on Crispy.]

[heir_conditioned]

[There's a lot of things the Todoroki family could do differently, maybe. Starting from a million different avenues that could've been taken and aren't just his father's fault. But they're here, today, and no one knows what the right move is aside leaving things alone until Touya is ready. If that ever happens.]

I said it to his face like it should've been. You wouldn't have hidden behind a phone either. If a fight happens, it'll be because it just happens. I worried everyone and gained nothing for it, a hard lesson I don't want to repeat.

[No more hospitals, please. His dad got called, it was awkward. Let him die in the field next time.]

[blastedass]

[That's not how it's going to go back home. There's no leaving Toya alone, not when the man's set himself up on a crash course with society's heroes with the insane idea of burning it all to the ground. Confronting him is the only recourse left for Shoto and Endeavor. If not the rest of the Todoroki family. Here, however, is a different story. Here could be different.

But unfortunately, that difference has to be met in the middle. Which is the tricky part.]

Wouldn't have gone out of my way for it. But he's not my brother.

[Shoto would make more sacrifices for Toya than Bakugo would. Still, the latter part of that comment is true. Shoto didn't gain much of anything from the encounter.

Sorry, but you're not allowed to die for something that stupid either.]

So tell me about the new guy.

[Got sidetracked and he's not scrolling back up there to reread it.]

[heir_conditioned]

[Back home there's nothing like this which is why Shoto really wants it to work. When they get home, no matter how hard he tries, remembering won't happen and neither will it for Toya. It'll all play out. But he would know he didn't try at all. However, the truthful part is definitely the meeting in the middle being the hardest part.]

You would if he was. I should've planned ahead, instead I got impulsive.

[Which may be something lucky for Bakugo, that he never has to balance these feelings considering what exactly Toya did to him. The events that got put into motion because of it and... everything else.]

Suzuya, Juuzou. He's someone from the City. Without him I wouldn't have learned to survive there easily.

[blastedass]

[Really wanting something... well... It's fine to really want something for someone else, but unless they want it too, then you're doing nothing more than imposing your will over theirs and deciding for yourself that your thoughts about their life superseded and invalidate theirs. Of course, Bakugo's not going to argue Shoto's desire for his brother to stop being a mass-murdering fuck head... Logical want right there.]

You got no idea how I'd treat my brother, if I fucking had one.

[He could end up a horrible bully towards his brother, kind of like how he treated Izuku. Or he could've been a perfect big brother who did everything right by him. Or a really controlling, overprotective jackass. Who the hell knows. Maybe best Mitsuki never found out.]

So you knew him from the other world. Wonder if Malachite's sucking up people from other dimensions now too...

You said they had to put him in a cell?

[heir_conditioned]

[Which is the ultimate problem, and maybe another reason why Shoto is going to have to consider not bothering Toya.]

You're right. I'm speculating based on what I know. You're a good person, I can't think you'd let someone in trouble stay that way.

[One explosive handful was probably enough to make her think twice aobut any other kids. Bakugo is one of a kind.]

He might be. I've seen other people I knew from the City that didn't remember me here.

Yes. If Juuzou feels threatened, he can get violent. Someone must have upset him. He doesn't act that way unprovoked.

[blastedass]

[He'll have to get creative with the 'bothering' part. Other people can talk to Dabi simply because they're not Shoto, which equates to "insta-hate" on the other man's side. The other teen's on immediate disadvantage there, unfortunately.]

The hell? I'm not some saint bailing people out if they fuck it up themselves! If they're strong enough to get out on their own, they should do it!

[And therein the reason why he lost points during the exam. Alas... He'd probably yell at his hypothetical little brother for fucking up. (And then make sure he was bandaged up and fine.) No reason for Shoto to know that last part.]

You mean, people who came from the Nameless City, but didn't remember you? Or just didn't remember you going to Noctium and then coming back to the Nameless City?

Jumpy bastard, huh. Depends on what he considers provoking...