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"Katsuki Bakugo. Make it fast or hang the fuck up."

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[blastedass]

[There's a difference between spending thirty seconds with Todoroki and spending thirty seconds with him trying to figure out what the fuck he's trying to say. Those could've been more well-spent thirty seconds with Todoroki! Fuck!]

What'd you think he was gonna do, try and lick you? He knew what he was getting into when he confronted you. If he thought he'd take you down without getting hurt badly, he's a fucking idiot.

Yeah, Kirishima mentioned that. Wouldn't be surprised if he's made an ally by now.

With Rook's permission lol

[heir_conditioned]

[Really now. Like mutual understanding and friendship?]

I hope not. I wouldn't like that. He had no clue, I could see by his expression. He also tried to warn me we were both in danger if I supercooled the air.

[Someone is going to have to tell him it's a selfish thing, that Dabi just didn't want to be blown up, perhaps. Shoto wants to think otherwise.]

Speaking of Kirishima, he's asked me to say hello. Hello from Kirishima. I hope that Toya found an ally, no one should be alone and it's dangerous if he is. However, he looked better than he did at Christmas.

[blastedass]

[Is that a tea kettle whistling?]

Sounds like he just didn't want to get blown up.

[Though it's kind of surprising that Dabi would bother to warn Shoto of something like that. The guy's seemed more than willing to throw himself into death if it meant killing Endeavor or Shoto. Self preservation's stronger than he thought...]

Lazy ass. Tell him to get on his fucking phone and tell me himself.

At least he looked better.

[heir_conditioned]

[...WOW.]

Maybe. Maybe I shouldn't be trying to help him. Maybe I'm going to make it worse and if I took a page from the old man's book, I just leave him alone. Then maybe he can be someone else if he doesn't have us on the mind.

I'll tell him. He said he'd take over cooking so I could text, so he may be a bit.

Yes. There is that. Until I blew him up. The more I talk the more I think maybe I'm just being entirely selfish. If we're not in his life, then he can't be obsessed. If I keep trying, he might turn to something of his old life.

[blastedass]

I'm not gonna help you with that choice. He's your brother, not mine.

[Don't brainstorm your family stuff at him! While he sits here and listens to it anyways. Reads it. Go talk Deku or Kirishima about it. They'll probably be more willing to help with an answer.]

He can be someone else here if he fucking wants. But that's up to him. Saying anything else is just pathetic.

[Good Kirishima. Take over the cooking so both of you can eat safely.]

You weren't in his life for ten years and he made you his life. His obsession isn't your fucking choice and even if you die, he won't get over it.

[heir_conditioned]

[Midoriya and Kirishima will listen, but Midoriya is despondent lately with his own problems and Kirishima is already pissed about time one. Even if, again to his credit, yes, Bakugo's sitting there at 8AM reading this.]

I wish you could. I feel like you'd make the right decision well over what I would. Have.

He can be. I suppose that means we all can be.

[Kirishima tries to keep them from dying and bacon from charring. It's a hard life for him.]

You're right, that I can't atone for sins that aren't mine but that's the most frustrating part. That's why I say you'd have a better head for it. I'm too focused on the outcome and I know it. An outcome that may never even be possible.

[blastedass]

[So go to the person who pointedly raged at you about bringing up "family shit" at dinner. Smart choice. Thing is, Bakugo is on the outside looking in. He sees a villain and a hero, not a brother and a father. Offering advice on something like that is fucking stupid.]

They're not my family. I have no fucking clue.

[And he never grew up with the trauma and issues Toya and Shoto did. Which even further excludes him from making some kind of informed decision on this. No understanding, no relation.]

No one "knows" you here. He knows this so his life's what he makes of it now. He's got no one to blame but himself for what he turns it into.

[Look, if his bestie shows up complaining of egg shells and burnt bacon in his tummy, Shoto's gonna get Hell's Kitchen cooking lessons. And it's gonna hurt.]

You see a brother and a father. I see a villain and a hero. Now tell me I have a better head for it.

[heir_conditioned]

[Shoto is reading what he's saying, but he's also trying to digest what Bakugo's said, too. Sometimes it's between the lines and sometimes it isn't. As for Kirishima, it's fiiiiine, they won't die. Maybe.]

I think that you seeing a villain and a hero is exactly what I wish I could see. But, as usual. You're right. What he makes of his life is his own to make. Your advise is invaluable right now.

[blastedass]

[Better not. You kill his not!friend with bad cooking, he'll send your ass to the grave to go fetch him back. Then hit you in the head with a frying pan for being a shit when you two get back.]

You can't. Not for either of them now. So you're gonna have to find your own answer to that question and what you can or can't do.

What I do know is that you're not stupid. You're a hero. And if there's a way to save him, you'll find it.

[But... thing is... "IF" is the word to focus on. Because Toya Todoroki may be unable to be saved. You can't save someone who doesn't want to be saved.]

Why the hell did you text me at 2 AM?

[heir_conditioned]

[Absolutely fair. Kirishima is his friend, too, and Shoto would go get him without the threats or prompting.

That if is a huge if and without the emphasis in the text? He still sees it as the largest of those words. It's Bakugo's between the lines and Shoto wishes he couldn't see it as clearly as day. ...What he wasn't expecting was the bit about not being stupid and also a hero.]

Thank you, Bakugo. I'm going to do my best, you can be sure of that.

I couldn't sleep. I've had a hard time finding a comfortable way of sleeping lately. Aside the thoughts plaguing me, it's still painful even with what they gave me.

[blastedass]

[You lose him, you get him. Simple as that.

There are things predictable about him, even if he'd like not to admit it, and then there are times when he can surprise people with going against the very typecast they put to him.]

Don't gush at me!

[OMG just shut up and take the fucking compliment!]

Sucks doesn't it. There's stronger medication out there, but it's probably not something you can get over the counter. Synchrony is supposed to help heal injuries faster as well.

[heir_conditioned]

[Shoto almost lost him. He's working on getting him, but shaken trust isn't easy to do. Kicked puppy isn't easy to unkick when Kirishima is said puppy.

There's good ol' Bakugo. Making sure to scream down the recognition he deserves so that no one, not even the private conversation, knows he's capable of being a great person.]

I'll try not to.

[EVERY TIME.]

It does "suck". The first time it was easier, this time? Not really. How much faster? I'd like to be able to at least be on the station in case someone we know ends up there. I don't know if they'll let me off the station but I can at least be there if it's that fast.

[blastedass]

[Maybe someday Shoto and Izuku'll fucking learn that going off to get yourself killed isn't going to make the people who actually give a shit about you happy. It's a funny paradox. Your life his your life, but at the same time, it's not, because it's linked to all those around you who'd be sad, hurt, and angry if you go and abuse it or throw it away for something stupid. Or at least so easily because you don't think it's of value to anyone...

Anyways, Kirishima is Shoto's problem; Bakugo's not going to help him patch that up.]

Better.

Not sure. Maybe a few days. I've never used synchrony to make healing go faster.

[At least not consciously?]

The hospitals here are good, so you'll be better long before "natural" healing happens.

[It's no Granny kiss, but Shoto shouldn't be down and out for more than a week. They had Bakugo patched up and walking around after his arrival post getting skewed by Shigaraki in a day. Back home, it took... longer to get that shit handled.]

[heir_conditioned]

[One day is this day. He caught fight his way to getting Dabi to live a life that isn't the one he's lived for ten years. There will be other opportunities to do other things. Shoto is starting to realize that he did something all over the board selfish and failed at worse, in all the ways possible.]

I promise.

I'll try it. I can at least be on the station that way, even if they don't let me out. Staying back in case someone comes in with another volunteer— I can watch the names and lists.

Thank you for talking this through with me.

[blastedass]

[He had a good reason for doing what he did, but just because you have a good reason for getting to Point B doesn't mean you can drive your ship over a reef and sandbar and hope to make it to the destination without massive injury, if not completely failing to make the journey.

Much as Bakugo certainly ascribes to the notion, beating the "Live Your Own Life But Better!" lesson into Dabi's head will never work. The man has to want to do it himself. Otherwise, they're wasting their time and effort on nothing. It's the sad, ugly truth.]

I'll be at the station like normal. Deku might not be there; I don't know. He's dealing with a lot right now.

You weren't awake for, dunno if Shitty Hair told you, but he came to see you in the hospital.

[heir_conditioned]

[Shoto added the boat hitting a pier and going down in a fiery blaze to that list of things one shouldn't do. A lot that he shouldn't have done because it's true, if he doesn't want to change nothing that Shoto can do will change him. Maybe the best is to switch tactic.]

I'll make sure to check in on him. Losing him to home was enough, losing him while he's sitting right here is something I don't want to happen.

Did he? Kirishima likely told me but I'm not a very reliable memory for some of that time. I'm lucky Kirishima is here to help. I can see why he and you are close friends.

[blastedass]

[You can't save someone who doesn't want to be saved. And in the end, that only means two people will die in the end, one of whom didn't need to, and whose efforts certainly wouldn't be appreciated by the death-determined side of the equation. Bakugo's more apt to let Dabi make his own choices here, and then fully hold him responsible for them since he had a completely blank slate and knows it.

No more blaming Endeavor or Shoto in Noctium. It's all on Crispy.]

Good luck. He refuses to come home except for a few fucking hours on irregular days. He's back to being a god damn rouge again.

You were fucking asleep! You won't HAVE memory of that time, dumbass!

[No comment on his and Kirishima being friends cause OMG give it a fucking rest!]

[heir_conditioned]

[He can't and Shoto will have to learn that the hard way here. He can't save Dabi or anyone else who pushes his hand away. It's true in where Dabi is responsible for every move here on out. Especially when they could most certainly be taking their jobs as heroes properly and keeping tabs on crime. All of them. His father alone could probably cleave a swath through crime.

However, the more pressing problem is Izuku right now. Shoto knows, realizes and feels it on a level that he hates hearing.]

He will come around. If he doesn't, then we go get him and straighten him out again. You should come over if he's not home, I'm sure Kirishima would enjoy the company as much as I would when he's back. Or if you want us to come over to wait for him with you then that's doable too.

Ah, not then. It's still just like him to have done it.

[Little does he know Bakugo had to wring it out of Izuku.]

[blastedass]

[Except that there's so fucking Little Crime here that Bakugo and some of the other hero types have bitched about things being "boring" for them. The Diamond Guards cover so much and vigilantism, not outright hero work, is only permitted in certain areas. Still, with the mess that's happened this month, perhaps that will suggest to the higher ups that things aren't as peaceful as they think.

Izuku's a pressing problem, but Bakugo really doubts there's much they can do about it asides from letting the guy run his course. The event going on, fucking winter weather, is of no help either.]

If he's not better by February, yeah. We'll kick his fucking ass again. I'll come over. If he saw a gathering at our house, he'd leave. Doesn't want to be around people much right now.

[Well, people he perceives as not needing his help or, for whatever reason, not wanting his company. Bakugo's gonna have a lot of backed up "pissed at you" feelings to deal with in February.]

You're important to him.

[He'll let Izuku have his secrets. Shoto doesn't need to know. Izuku can guilt about it later when Shoto brings it up. Immature Paybacks.]

[heir_conditioned]

[True enough that they could clean it up pretty well, but at least Shoto just isn't interested in going full underground to clean it up. He's too tired with all the things he has to do already.

Nothing is going right this month for any of them. In any way.]

I'll take your lead on it. He will be a tough opponent but I will do it for his own sake. All our sake. Any time you wish. That way I can return the favour of adding you to my security. For the moment with the weather as it is, I'm at the apartment.

He's important to me, too. I'll text him while you're on your way over to ask how he's doing.

[blastedass]

[Bakugo's not sure how much they could clean up. Mostly because for as long as he's known it, Ruby Underground had done things legally. One of those things where you know something's sketchy going on, but the law can't touch it. Who's to say it won't go back that way again?

But yeah, it is a fucking shit month.]

Probably won't come to that, but if it does, I'll let you know and Kirishima know. Earlobes if she's around.

Don't think your construction workers would be doing shit in this weather anyways.

[heir_conditioned]

[Or maybe if they're lucky the snake will eat its own tail and they won't have to touch it. If something spills out of the cesspool though, Shoto is going to get in that uniform with or without his regulator and kick something in the ass. He's assuming so would the rest of them.]

Yes. I understand his need to handle things alone, but he doesn't have to. I'm sure we'll figure something out.

I wouldn't like them to. The land is there and there's no rush.

[blastedass]

[That's the plan. Bakugo'd rather not have another eruption like this (unless it's everyone against Malachite and tearing the bastard down so they could al go home) but if it's going to happen, he'll do the same thing he did this time: wade in there blasting and being a big damn hero to claim victory.]

He wants to handle things alone, thinks he can, but it'll just get worse and worse. You saw what happened to him when he's left alone. He's not good to himself when he's alone.

[heir_conditioned]

[Just as Shoto expects from Bakugo. There's not a moment in the day that doesn't have some sort of victory he can assume Bakugo has had. Big or little. However, the way he's speaking doesn't sound so victorious, neither should it.]

We'll let him have some time to himself and if he doesn't come back when this is all a little more in the clear, we drag him back. I promise you. Maybe you and Kirishima could go out looking just to be sure. If he replies to me I can at least ask if he's eating properly to remind him to eat.

[blastedass]

[When everything can be a competition, then everything can be a victory. Even aggressively brushing your teeth to destroy all the fucking germs in your mouth and then yelling at your mother when she yells at you for being so fucking loud after sleeping in too late. Bakugo life.]

Yeah. At least he's leaving his GPS on so we can track him. [For now...] Might want to face time him instead of just texting. He might like that better.