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Date: 6/15/25 22:37 (UTC)
laserguy: (i'm sorry)
From: [personal profile] laserguy
Whatever man, just saying it's a cool title.

[But as amusing as it may be to bicker about something like that, Scott did come here to check on Bakugo and talk to him about what they saw down in the tunnels. Maybe apologize for chasing down the voices of his teammates, but that ended up being moot anyway as they bumped into the heart in the end. Still, he can at least acknowledge that Bakugo was right about it being a trap.

Even though it hurts so much thinking about. Even if it nearly gets Scott to stifle his breath for a moment, trying to push back everything. At least he won't notice him closing his eyes behind his shades as he pulls everything in, tries to package it up tight. All that's come with a reminder of how alone he sometimes feels in this place, despite all the friends he made.

It's stupid, he knows, but it's a feeling he can't shake now.]


This place is alive. [He acknowledges, quietly.] And it was a big enough jerk to taunt us with voices of the people we care about.

Date: 6/17/25 23:20 (UTC)
laserguy: (no i can't see)
From: [personal profile] laserguy
Yeah, but it managed to repel us. Easily.

[A shitty thing to admit, but that's the truth of the matter and so Scott isn't going to turn away from it even though the words feel like sandpaper coming out from his mouth. It sucks, admitting that they didn't manage to do what they wanted to do, even if they got to see the heart. Is it progress if they aren't able to go back to the heart?

Not to mention...]


It repelled me twice.

[Scott swallows tightly as memories of that second time flood into his mind. Well, sort of, they're mostly a blur, vague around the edges, but he remembers losing control. Almost hurting someone that he cares about as a sort of madness took root in his mind, possessing him. He folds his arms across his chest, although it looks more like Scott is trying to stop the way his body shakes from what happened there.]

Date: 6/21/25 13:23 (UTC)
laserguy: (big ol' visor)
From: [personal profile] laserguy
...Yeah.

[A quiet agreement, showing that Scott isn't down and out for the count just yet, despite his past failures with the heart. It's only when he gives up that he's truly lost, right? Besides, if he let something like this bring him down, there's no way he can lead the X-Men in the future. Still sucks, of course, but learn from those mistakes and be better prepared next time.

He's learned a little more with that second encounter too. It's apparent that Bakugo only managed to get there once, so it's probably important to share what information he has, even if those memories shift uncomfortably in his mind, reminding him of the person he almost killed there.]


I went back down after we were initially ejected. [Voice still steady. Good. Meet those narrowed eyes with his blank sunglasses.] I couldn't find you or reach you, so I thought you might've went back down. Found another friend and we managed to make to the heart.

[A small pause. Like Scott is trying to keep his voice level.] And it affected me differently that time.

Date: 6/24/25 23:52 (UTC)
laserguy: (look i know i'm an ass)
From: [personal profile] laserguy
I know.

[A simple acknowledgement, tinged with some guilt, though that's not the point that he wants to focus on right now and luckily, it doesn't seem like Bakugo wants to either. He's focused on digging into the part that his friend didn't get to experience-- how it differed compared to their first trek down to the heart and relaying that information to him. While Scott still has some doubts if the heart is truly what they need to destroy, he's also not happy about being tricked about the voices and losing control over himself and almost hurting his friend.

Yeah, those things aren't really forgivable. But. What about the House? It's been mentioned before that they're the true masterminds behind everything, but... that's another obstacle that he hasn't even encountered yet.]


There was this overwhelming madness that overtook me. Like, I couldn't think-- couldn't focus, maybe even breathe... I just wanted to blast everything around me. And almost did.

Date: 6/25/25 23:45 (UTC)
laserguy: (courage)
From: [personal profile] laserguy
It wasn't rage. Or at least... it wasn't just that.

[He confirms, that part at least sort of easy to admit, even if it means affirming something that might be worse in comparison? He doesn't know, maybe it's stupid to even try and quantify that in the first place. The important thing that he needs to remember is his loss of control and how close he got to hurting a close friend.

A hard pill to swallow, but Scott doesn't intend to turn away from it even if it sucks. He has to take responsibility.]


I wanted to just blast everything and everyone-- I pretty much felt everything at once. Anger, excitement, determination, the want to just... let loose and not hold back anymore.

[No longer wear these glasses and just let his powers fly out because that's who he is?? Except that was just the madness talking, right? Yeah. He's not like that. His fingers dig a little into his arm, trying to force himself to stay focused.]

Date: 7/4/25 00:43 (UTC)
laserguy: (i'm sorry)
From: [personal profile] laserguy
No, of course not.

[Now he's just tired, physically. Mentally. Emotionally. But all of that is still better than the out of control emotions that briefly overtook him. These feelings are truly his own, unlike what happened in the tunnel. At least, he's mostly sure those emotions weren't his own. It's easy to feel that way for now. Otherwise he'd have to accept that he might just hurt people close to him and not really think twice about it all for a sense of 'freedom.'

He's never wanted to use his powers in that way, even before becoming a X-Man.]


It stopped after the Heart ejected me for that final time.

Date: 7/10/25 22:39 (UTC)
laserguy: (how did you know)
From: [personal profile] laserguy
[If there's anyone that he can trust to handle him when he's out of control... Bakugo is definitely one of those people. Even if he goes all out with his powers, there's still a decent chance that his friend would be able to take him down-- something that is actually comforting. Bakugo knocking him out before he can hurt anyone else, whether it's a friend or a complete stranger. A part of him is worried about Bakugo's safety too, of course, but... he's used to fighting powered people.

He can trust him to do this.

So, Scott swallows, nodding to his offer. A part of him becomes less tense, hands no longer gripping his arms as hard.]


I know you won't go easy on me. You'll do what's needed.

Date: 7/13/25 18:24 (UTC)
laserguy: (ruby quartz)
From: [personal profile] laserguy
That would be preferrable.

[He almost jokes, some of that earlier tension finally leaving his body as a little sigh shudders from his form. It's just that if someone were to get really hurt, if he did end up killing someone, he would want Bakugo to stop him as quickly as possible. A sort of 'fully stop him' before things get worse. Although, he wouldn't want to saddle his friend with something like that either-- he'll just have to trust Bakugo to make the right call if something were to happen.

If their roles were reversed, he wouldn't be able to kill him. Just try and stop him the normal way, knock him out with the biggest headache in the world.]


I'll do the same for you, if it happens.

Date: 7/15/25 12:26 (UTC)
laserguy: (still closing them)
From: [personal profile] laserguy
I will.

[Maybe daring to say, or even challenging if this was their normal bickering, but Scott knows how important this is for the both of them. Trusting the other to stop each other if something ever were to happen, which is very possible in this place. Yeah, sex casino, but it's dangerous as well. Always important to have plans in mind, be prepared for anything. It's how to mitigate potential hurt and everything.

And there's a lot of people that he actually cares about in this place. This feels like a necessary conversation.

He almost comments how it would be a shame to cut his hands off for various reasons, but Scott doesn't have it fully in him to make a joke like that. If he ever fights Bakugo outside out a spar, it will be the first time he really engaged in a fight outside of training simulators-- with the exception of those angels a while back. But even that feels a little different.]
I'll do my best. Don't want that, and don't want you hurting anyone.

[Maybe they should go for a training session soon.]

Date: 7/17/25 12:51 (UTC)
laserguy: (big ol' visor)
From: [personal profile] laserguy
[He knows that Bakugo can't fully promise something like and he's sure the other teen is well-aware of that fact too, so he doesn't bother to correct him. No matter how strong willed his friend is, if the casino wants something to happen, it usually does-- they only can mitigate the damage and prepare, just like what they're doing now. It sucks though, feeling this powerless. He's not fully used to things not going perfectly well.

Maybe it's best for him to learn that now? Before he starts doing actual missions with the X-Men. Although, that feels like a defeatist mindset... he doesn't want things to ever go poorly.

But things to think about later.]


It won't. Not for good anyway. [...] I'll kick your ass if I see otherwise.

Date: 7/22/25 22:56 (UTC)
laserguy: (watch me become co-dependent with jean)
From: [personal profile] laserguy
[Finally, there's a flicker of a smile that returns to Scott, hearing Bakugo's loud proclamation. What else can he do but quietly appreciate his friend's determination? Well, probably a lot, but he's not going to be that asshole. He still believes in hoping for the best... while preparing for the worst. But.]

Good. [...] So, going to finish giving me this tour? One of the rooms that I can crash at later?