[ Jumped a few steps and already touching ass. Till just had to be a vending machine. ]
there is no going back
[ He knows. Rationally, he can only move forward, but more often than not, his thoughts linger on the past. Even at his most lucid, his thoughts race to that moment. In that instance, under the artificial rain, on that stage where he should have met his end. His guilt extends further back, to his childhood, another time he cannot return to. And he wants to paint over all of it. Cover that harsh red. Make it soft, make it bright and gentle. ]
right.
[ That too will be pushed away. Ignored. Rejected.
It's for his future self to deal with. ] i'll use a different approach [ Thoughtless appeasement. If he says that it should be enough. ]
[A broken vending machine that steals money and hoards its goodies.]
doesn't mean you can't learn from it
[Only an idiot forgets the past and refuses to look back on anything. No one got where they were today without going through everything behind them. Denying it is the same as denying yourself. Bakugo's not one to let himself be trapped in the past or weighed down by it, but he can't cut himself free of it either. Lessons were learned there.]
learn what exactly? don't be fucking stupid. there is nothing i can do with that. the next round is
[ That's right. He is here. He isn't being fast-tracked to the finals. Yet his question remains. What does he do with that memory? What does he glean from it? The only thing he feels is confusion, hurt, and loneliness. There was an empty spot. He can confront it. What if he doesn't like the answers? ]
i asked you what you'd do differently; you know what you regret. if you're in the situation again, don't make the same choice.
[Bakugo still disagrees with throwing any competition, but he has a feeling Till doing so would've saved someone he cared about. Can't say he's ever been in that situation, and would hate to be in it. But saving someone versus winning... Well in Bakugo's case, he'd figure out a way to do BOTH so fuck off!]
good
[At least that'll make trading cards with Till easier. For Bakugo.]
[ People only have a single life. He can't rewind time. He cannot even parse through those images and get a full picture of that man's choice. He can only regret and never escape a memory. He won't sleep well tonight, like any other night, only it'll be much worse. ]
whatever.
[ He still thinks it was a brilliant idea, but he won't mention it again to Bakugo. Perhaps he will seek a different opinion elsewhere. Maybe later. Much later. It isn't a pressing issue. It's one he isn't in a hurry to learn more about. With that last message sent, Till is going to ignore his watch. It feels like a reasonable spot to conclude their conversation. ]
[He'll leave Till to believe that (and if he means literally, he's not wrong; there's no alien stage here). Trying to turn back time is a stupid endeavor, but learning from the past is how people grow and improve. They get stronger, avoid making the same mistakes or regrets. Even if a memory is impossible to escape from, it doesn't have to control his life. Bakugo has his own regrets, an atonement he'll be making until he dies. But... he chooses it.
Maybe Till can find that strength of control at some point in his time here.]
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Date: 6/13/25 05:50 (UTC)there is no going back
[ He knows. Rationally, he can only move forward, but more often than not, his thoughts linger on the past. Even at his most lucid, his thoughts race to that moment. In that instance, under the artificial rain, on that stage where he should have met his end. His guilt extends further back, to his childhood, another time he cannot return to. And he wants to paint over all of it. Cover that harsh red. Make it soft, make it bright and gentle. ]
right.
[ That too will be pushed away. Ignored. Rejected.
It's for his future self to deal with. ] i'll use a different approach [ Thoughtless appeasement. If he says that it should be enough. ]
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Date: 6/13/25 19:25 (UTC)doesn't mean you can't learn from it
[Only an idiot forgets the past and refuses to look back on anything. No one got where they were today without going through everything behind them. Denying it is the same as denying yourself. Bakugo's not one to let himself be trapped in the past or weighed down by it, but he can't cut himself free of it either. Lessons were learned there.]
a different approach?
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Date: 6/14/25 06:42 (UTC)learn what exactly? don't be fucking stupid.
there is nothing i can do with that. the next round is
[ That's right. He is here. He isn't being fast-tracked to the finals. Yet his question remains. What does he do with that memory? What does he glean from it? The only thing he feels is confusion, hurt, and loneliness. There was an empty spot. He can confront it. What if he doesn't like the answers? ]
i won't ask for stuff
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Date: 6/14/25 13:02 (UTC)if you're in the situation again, don't make the same choice.
[Bakugo still disagrees with throwing any competition, but he has a feeling Till doing so would've saved someone he cared about. Can't say he's ever been in that situation, and would hate to be in it. But saving someone versus winning... Well in Bakugo's case, he'd figure out a way to do BOTH so fuck off!]
good
[At least that'll make trading cards with Till easier. For Bakugo.]
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Date: 6/16/25 05:33 (UTC)[ People only have a single life. He can't rewind time. He cannot even parse through those images and get a full picture of that man's choice. He can only regret and never escape a memory. He won't sleep well tonight, like any other night, only it'll be much worse. ]
whatever.
[ He still thinks it was a brilliant idea, but he won't mention it again to Bakugo. Perhaps he will seek a different opinion elsewhere. Maybe later. Much later. It isn't a pressing issue. It's one he isn't in a hurry to learn more about. With that last message sent, Till is going to ignore his watch. It feels like a reasonable spot to conclude their conversation. ]
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Date: 6/16/25 18:41 (UTC)Maybe Till can find that strength of control at some point in his time here.]
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Date: 6/17/25 19:46 (UTC)🎀 good wrap for me!
Date: 6/17/25 20:59 (UTC)