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Date: 2/17/25 04:43 (UTC)
loosestrifes: (29)
From: [personal profile] loosestrifes
( There's the chaos of the new "game" starting, so this text comes a while after it's started. In the downtime, between dealing with the influx of arrows and annoying little babies, Esikko finds himself back in his room, temporarily safe. But having already been hit by an assortment of arrows, he's not really safe, not from everything.

This huge suite is so isolating. And unlike normally, where he sucks it up and ignores it, writes in his journal a little, maybe draws some flowers or takes care of other plants— this time, he can't get the thoughts out of his mind until he does something.

And so. A message... That's a step, right? Not so irritating, but a small bandage over loneliness? )


How are you holding up?

Date: 2/17/25 22:44 (UTC)
loosestrifes: (3)
From: [personal profile] loosestrifes
( Just good...? No complaints about the cherubs? No grumpy commentary??

It actually makes him a little more worried, at first. )


Really? Have you eaten and everything?

I mean, I don't doubt that you're handling yourself or anything. I just


( he sends that too early, and there's a pause )

Are you busy?

( urgh )

Date: 2/18/25 05:13 (UTC)
loosestrifes: (30)
From: [personal profile] loosestrifes
( ...The worrying just gets worse, like this. He's not even questioning his questions? Just answering them?? )

I'm starting to worry about you, answering like that...

It's too quiet in my suite, too.

Maybe you should come over? For both of those reasons.

Date: 2/19/25 06:26 (UTC)
loosestrifes: (101)
From: [personal profile] loosestrifes
No, I'm not.

( He sends that, then types up his next message and waits for a few seconds before slapping send. )

I just want to see you, I think.

Date: 2/20/25 00:00 (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] loosestrifes
( Even a niceies Bakugo can press him on his sap... At least it's strangely getting easier and easier to ignore that nagging shame. )

It's too much if I say it without adding that, isn't it? Just come over.

( He's in his suite, as said, and will answer the door whenever Bakugo shows up. )

Date: 2/21/25 05:20 (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] loosestrifes
( As soon as he gets the message, Esikko forgets his normal go-to of waiting a respectable amount of time before opening the door. He doesn't want it to seem like he's just waiting at the door, even when he is!

But this time, he swings it open right away, focused instead on giving Bakugo a curious once-over before stepping back. )


Come in...

( Aside from slightly puffy eyes, Esikko looks normal. His injuries have been lessening and healing with his own magic. And his place is clean, even if it still smells floral.

But he's lingering a little oddly near Bakugo even as he steps in, eyes tracing over him still. )


I thought you'd be a little more argumentative, you know, about coming over.

Date: 2/21/25 07:59 (UTC)
loosestrifes: (64)
From: [personal profile] loosestrifes
...I never sleep well.

( It's not that, and he doesn't understand the connection for that question, right now, too focused on the strange soft appearance of Bakugo's face. After a moment, he reaches out to take him by the wrist, pulling him further into his suite.

Where... the living room, right. There's a nice sized couch there he can drag him to, where he can consider all of this for a moment. It's in view of the kitchen, and there's a nice sized TV, too, but it's currently off. Esikko isn't one for idle noise. Maybe that's what makes the silence of his suite so suffocating, even if there are plants surrounding him. It's too quiet. )


Anyway, because you always are, you know? Were you hit? How many times? Do you feel strange? Here, let's sit.

Date: 2/22/25 05:51 (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] loosestrifes
The potions help the physical need, but there's a groggy sort of feeling the morning after, so it's hard to feel satisfied. Have you ever used sleep aids? It's different from a restful sleep, isn't it?

( The last time he got restful sleep... It had to be when he was sleeping next to someone. Even if he ends up plagued by nightmares in a setting like that, he can roll over and find warmth to cuddle into and ease it away. But that feels embarrassing to admit, to realize, to anything, and so he focuses instead on scanning Bakugo. No bleeding... and he doesn't see any heart shaped bruises. Not that that means they're not there at all, but...

He falls back into a seat on the sofa, leaving room for Bakugo to do the same. His rooms are decorated with light or calm colors and plenty of greenery. The living room especially has a few hints at his personality here and there, such as the small sketchbook laying out on the table, one fancy tea set on display and another out for clear use, and a couple of various types of charms here or there. Esikko runs both hands over his face for a moment, humming like he's trying to decide where his thoughts are wandering. )


Sorry. ( Unusual, for him to apologize, but it slips out all the same as he drops his hands away with a sigh. ) I suppose it's unfair to be concerned just because you're in a good mood. My suit has been acting up, so maybe it's just that.

( Saying that, as if the suit reactions don't come from real thoughts, or real sources, is unfair, but he doesn't want to admit that right now. )

Date: 2/27/25 03:00 (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] loosestrifes
...

( No, it's definitely creeping him out. There's a careful balance between the attention he wants and the sort of strange, not-fully-there feeling this gives off, and the wording of "pacified it" has him pausing for just as long as Bakugo questioning why he's apologizing instead of just insulting him is.

His hands are cold, but he still half turns on the couch to face Bakugo better, reaching to slip the back of his hand beneath his bangs and against Bakugo's forehead. He might be icy, but he can at least tell normal warmth from a fever, even still!

But this feels normal, doesn't it? )


I— what kind of a question is that? I'm not telling you something like that.

( It's not normally a problem, and he's not normally shy, but it's hard not to feel suddenly embarrassed when it's being asked in a clinical way like that! Moving his hand from his forehead, he brings both palms to his cheeks, instead, turning his face left and then right, if he'll allow it. )

Are you... ( math lady meme ) ...mad at me? Or something?

( If a guy is always angry, does he go anti-angry when he's mad?? That thought is quickly dropped, though, when the inability to find the telltale heart shaped bruises of the cherub's arrows brings him down a different train of thought. There's no way he tried to downrank already, right? The House didn't give him some sort of a... task? Or a punishment? Or—

It's strange, worrying this much about someone, and he's not used to it— so maybe that's why he hasn't realized his grip on Bakugo's face has turned into something too tight. )

Date: 2/28/25 07:14 (UTC)
loosestrifes: (29)
From: [personal profile] loosestrifes
...It's worrying. When you're not your usual self.

( His words come as a mumble, as Esikko adjusts his grip and eventually lets go. It's reluctant, the way he pulls his hands back, and even as he lowers them, his fingertips still graze against Bakugo's clothes, his leg, like a tiny hook or press might keep him closer. )

You're usually angry, aren't you? So I thought... ( He trails off, and then shakes his head, fingers curling without realizing against Bakugo's leg. )

Nevermind. I... suppose if you're being nice, I can say that your company is reassuring. So, I just mean... don't hold anything in all the time, or whatever.

( why is he tsunning so aggressively? don't worry about it. )

What were you doing before you came here, anyway?

Date: 3/11/25 05:06 (UTC)
loosestrifes: (94)
From: [personal profile] loosestrifes
I'm— what?

( Esikko is so genuinely stunned by being called not only nice, but "one of the nicer people here" that his thoughts absolutely stop in their tracks. That's startling enough. But the warm hand over his own, the gentle squeeze, the touch of that hand to his forehead right after?

He freezes for a few seconds before pulling back in a fluster, like he's just touched something too hot, hand pulling back to his chest and his head turning away, eyes darting to find something else to focus on. It's different when he's the one that initiates close contact, it's far less surprising! But Bakugo?? )


I— well, I mean, maybe you did. I was just distracted. ( By not getting his sass? He stammers onwards, a puff of air releasing the breath he'd held onto by accident. ) But I'm... not... nice, you know? How exactly are people treating you to be thinking something like that? I'm...

( He trails off, though a number of words come to mind in the voices of plenty of others, confirmed by his own actions. A bitch? Probably. An asshole? Definitely. He ignores the words that continue to follow, a frown twitching at the corners of his mouth. )

...Anyway, there are plenty of reasons, but it's better if you're not. I just don't want you to... you know, if you say something when you're like this and take it back later, I'm going to be upset, okay?

( Without explaining that, he pushes himself to stand, already marching towards the kitchen. )

Are you hungry?

Date: 3/11/25 17:21 (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] loosestrifes
( Esikko can certainly be nice. He's learning to do more of it here, but— but it goes against everything he's ever been raised to be like, so it's a bit uncomfortable. Isn't it weak? Doesn't it open him up to more pain? Those sort of silly little ideas float around, but right now, he can't seem to focus on them. At least there's that.

But despite his hearts-related flare up causing him to focus instead on making Bakugo more comfortable, he is, in fact, in the kitchen, opening up cabinets and looking around. This is definitely a bad idea. )


Isn't that what you said I should learn? ( Isn't it what he likes, too? "Home cooking" instead of whatever drug-laced nonsense is floating around various establishments here. Esikko is pulling out all sorts of things, like having them all on the counter together might tell him what he can make. )

I bought some groceries, or whatever, because of that. So... Surely I can make something from this. ( help him before this place goes up in flames )

Date: 3/12/25 05:26 (UTC)
loosestrifes: (100)
From: [personal profile] loosestrifes
No... not yet. I mean, I did try something...

( Chocolates? But he trails off and quickly abandons that train of thought even if it's questioned, focusing firmly instead on the way Bakugo organizes things. Huh. He can't even tell what they're going to be making from this. Like, obviously, there are ingredients here and he can tell the main one, but—

He presses his lips together in a frown, quietly reaching to grab one of the rejected ingredients. )


So you're going to help me?

( Quietly, as he tucks some sort of unnecessary and niche spice back into the spice rack that's mostly empty, then reaches to grab the next reject. He's cleaning up slowly. )

Even eating feels like a chore most of the time... But I suppose it can't hurt to try it with proper help. You can't laugh at my attempts, though. That's a rule.

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