['We won' is simultaneously the most stressful thing to ever hear. The most two sided story of someone like Todoroki. The return message also comes slowly. Deleted letters that he reassessed, and finally sent in the only way he can think to ask.]
[How indeed to answer that. The simplest answer is easy, but so much more resides in the question Bakugo can't answer with the simplest answer. He knows the parts Todoroki wants to know most, the parts even more important to him than the rest...]
Most of them are recovering.
Toya's alive. [He lets it go silent for a bit, giving his friend a minute or two for the relief and panic, answer and question, to settle in.] Endeavor's alive.
[The first message comes in and 'most' has his heart in his throat. Bakugo is right to give him a bit between those answers. Shoto has to sit himself down in his chair at home just to reconcile the definitive answer that he hadn't had to cause such damage to his brother that there was no saving him. Something that he had worried heavily about, something he had tried so desperately not to let happen, but something he knew might be a reality.
He can feel guilty later he hadn't been worried about his father. And feel guil-- Shigaraki? Dead?
That was Izuku's to handle, but he wouldn't have killed him. Further he can't imagine someone killing anyone in that fight from their side. Not anymore even if it's a reality.]
[Out of everything in the war, Bakugo knows it's Toya who would be front and center in Shoto's mind. Despite everything the bastard did, he was still Shoto's brother, someone the other boy wanted so badly to get to know. Whether he'll be able to after all that happened... Bakugo can't tell him that. There's a chance. At least.
Were they able to save Toya? ... He doesn't know that either. He's pretty sure Izuku and Ochako both had the same questions about the villains they tried to reach and save.]
He did himself in. He used a copy of that little girl's Rewind Quirk and ran out of time. It took everyone to run out the stupid clock.
[It's true, despite that of course he was worried for his friends, for his teachers, for the other heroes putting their lives on the line he wanted to know about his brother. His family. At least Bakugo has taken the worry off his heart that he had killed him, or rather forced him to kill himself.
Reading what happened to All for One is almost cathartic in itself.]
Normally not my take on it, but I can't say that I'm sad to read it. I can't say I'm unhappy to know it. I don't like anyone dying, but I can't say he didn't do it to himself by his own hand.
[He's not surprise Shoto shows little remorse for the villain who haunted all their dreams while growing up. All for One, the most dangerous man who ever lived. As much as Bakugo would want to take all the credit for a victory, this s one he'll refuse as "his alone" until the end of time. He never could have stopped All for One on his own.
All he did was buy out the last few minutes on the clock. It wasn't like he had any connection to the villain. Not like Izuku to Shigaraki, Ochako to Himiko, or Shoto to Toya.
He was simply the final boss.]
Aa. He gambled and he lost.
If you don't wanna go detail every little thing LOL just vague post introspectively any details
[All the same, knowing that the villain was put to rest forever, that his brother isn't dead and that everyone seems to be alright is such a weight off him.]
As long as the issue is no longer an issue, I'm glad he decided to make the wrong decision. Who all was there to witness it-- You I am already assuming.
Oh I'll gloss over things cause yeah. He ain't Izuku.
[There are other weights to sit on shoulders. Even after their win, a lot of them have a hard time thinking of it as, well... a win. There's still so much to do, so many they have to help, and all of it has to be better.]
His immediate death? Just me. Izuku and All Might were there, but Izuku was focusing on the Nutsack Face Lackey, and All Might was trying not to get blown off a damn roof.
[And he couldn't move much either.]
Yeah, by all means lmao. I really appreciate the catch-him-up thread though, thank you!
[Just Bakugo... The man can't see it, but that makes Shoto smile. Despite it all being them, Bakugo deserves that big win, he's worked hard and while again attributed to everyone, he's sure...]
Is that your last memory? Shigaraki and Midoriya fighting?
No prob! Feel free to use this as a generic "update" if you wanna for Shoto's knowledge, haha~
[His defeat of All for One is the only win in his life Bakugo will refuse to ever take sole credit for. Even angrily lashing out at someone for asking how "he beat" All for One. Did he deserve it? Pride wise, hell yeah he was eager to trash talk that asshole and take him on as All for One's final boss!
But inside? No, he did it because he was the only one standing between All for One and the world. He can't say he felt like he deserved the victory. Honestly, he had far more beef with Shigaraki than fucking Nutsack Face.
Dammit, though, he'll take the damn swell consolation prize!]
No. I went home and came back. The war's been over for about a week and a half. My last memory's in the classroom with the rest of you.
[These are all things that he is actually happy to hear, that the threat is gone and that his friends are safe. That things are so far "alright" enough that they can even go back to class. Sure, he's certain like was mentioned that it's not all easy peesy lemon squeezy but at least hearing Bakugo say things are going to be alright makes him feel like there are less things he has to concern himself with.]
We get to go back to school.
[Not a question, a statement, and one that he starts to look forward to. Even with the hardships in between.]
I want that again without the threat of everything.
["Alright" enough. That says a lot. Midoriya didn't promise they would get everything back, that they would return it all to normal as if nothing ever happened. No, they could only promise they would save everyone and do their damnest to do things better going forward. For everyone. Sappy shit like that.
But Shoto's right. Things are going to be alright. Better for some than for others.]
Aa. Graduation was delayed.
[Obviously. Shoto knew that already.]
Aizawa-sensei's still gonna be our homeroom teacher for our 2nd year.
[Yeah, the idea of having a "normal" school year without the shadow of war.
[It's true. Things won't be easy and even not having gone through it yet, Shoto understands it. He's not sure how to feel about it yet, other than proud of Bakugo-- of everyone. Maybe even a little bit himself. He was able to save his brother. That's more than he could ever ask for.]
I wish I could say I'm excited to get home to be back in school with you all. I'm proud of you, of everyone. But it's going to be a hard fight still, isn't it? To get to the point where I can enjoy Aizawa-sensei as our teacher again.
[There's a lot to process, even if Shoto's getting the information from word-of-mouth rather than experience. Bakugo still finds himself dealing with some shellshock in his private moments. The unreal feeling of surviving. Of going through a war. Of the monumental task that is recovering.]
You wish? What, you're content to stay here forever?
[Both surprise and mild taunting at best.]
Yeah, you've got a lot waiting for your when you return. Even though I told you this, you won't remember any of it when you go back.
It's not like I'm looking forward to seeing everyone hurt, Bakugo. Or seeing everyone in chains. I wish I could stay here, but I won't. I'll go home and I'll meet you in class.
We'll see. What you say is important, and you're my best friend. I'm going to try hard to remember it. I've heard before I won't, too, but I haven't tried.
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And the other side?
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Most of them are recovering.
Toya's alive. [He lets it go silent for a bit, giving his friend a minute or two for the relief and panic, answer and question, to settle in.] Endeavor's alive.
But Shigaraki, Himiko, and All for One died.
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He can feel guilty later he hadn't been worried about his father. And feel guil-- Shigaraki? Dead?
That was Izuku's to handle, but he wouldn't have killed him. Further he can't imagine someone killing anyone in that fight from their side. Not anymore even if it's a reality.]
Who killed All for One? Endeavor?
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Were they able to save Toya? ... He doesn't know that either. He's pretty sure Izuku and Ochako both had the same questions about the villains they tried to reach and save.]
He did himself in. He used a copy of that little girl's Rewind Quirk and ran out of time. It took everyone to run out the stupid clock.
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Reading what happened to All for One is almost cathartic in itself.]
Normally not my take on it, but I can't say that I'm sad to read it. I can't say I'm unhappy to know it. I don't like anyone dying, but I can't say he didn't do it to himself by his own hand.
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All he did was buy out the last few minutes on the clock. It wasn't like he had any connection to the villain. Not like Izuku to Shigaraki, Ochako to Himiko, or Shoto to Toya.
He was simply the final boss.]
Aa. He gambled and he lost.
If you don't wanna go detail every little thing LOL just vague post introspectively any details
As long as the issue is no longer an issue, I'm glad he decided to make the wrong decision. Who all was there to witness it-- You I am already assuming.
Oh I'll gloss over things cause yeah. He ain't Izuku.
His immediate death? Just me. Izuku and All Might were there, but Izuku was focusing on the Nutsack Face Lackey, and All Might was trying not to get blown off a damn roof.
[And he couldn't move much either.]
Yeah, by all means lmao. I really appreciate the catch-him-up thread though, thank you!
Is that your last memory? Shigaraki and Midoriya fighting?
No prob! Feel free to use this as a generic "update" if you wanna for Shoto's knowledge, haha~
But inside? No, he did it because he was the only one standing between All for One and the world. He can't say he felt like he deserved the victory. Honestly, he had far more beef with Shigaraki than fucking Nutsack Face.
Dammit, though, he'll take the damn swell consolation prize!]
No. I went home and came back. The war's been over for about a week and a half. My last memory's in the classroom with the rest of you.
OH! Right!! Thanks Star, I appreciate that. ♥
We get to go back to school.
[Not a question, a statement, and one that he starts to look forward to. Even with the hardships in between.]
I want that again without the threat of everything.
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But Shoto's right. Things are going to be alright. Better for some than for others.]
Aa. Graduation was delayed.
[Obviously. Shoto knew that already.]
Aizawa-sensei's still gonna be our homeroom teacher for our 2nd year.
[Yeah, the idea of having a "normal" school year without the shadow of war.
...instead it'll be the trough of recovery.]
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I wish I could say I'm excited to get home to be back in school with you all. I'm proud of you, of everyone. But it's going to be a hard fight still, isn't it? To get to the point where I can enjoy Aizawa-sensei as our teacher again.
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You wish? What, you're content to stay here forever?
[Both surprise and mild taunting at best.]
Yeah, you've got a lot waiting for your when you return. Even though I told you this, you won't remember any of it when you go back.
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We'll see. What you say is important, and you're my best friend. I'm going to try hard to remember it. I've heard before I won't, too, but I haven't tried.
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Maybe we'll have the option to have both in the future.
I didn't remember anything from this place when I went home. But
I knew in my heart I couldn't lose. There were people waiting for me.