[ Unloading himself, sharing how he feels - it's difficult for Yuji, when he feels such a well of sadness and guilt that he can't swallow back or hide. The truth is that he feels like he deserves to feel this way for his own sins and mistakes. For messing up when he did, as many times as he did.
It helps, to talk about things. In small doses, to limit his own exposure. He still has nightmares, he still feels divorced from reality sometimes, but it's getting better. It's improving, slowly but surely. Time and time again, it'll get better. ]
that's how i feel as well. i've got people i want to save, so i'm not going to give up until i know i've done it. that's my determination right now.
we're both going to be reliable people and we're gonna do our best. i know that. i believe in us, dandelion.
[It's different for Bakugo. Showing how he feels, revealing his mistakes and frustrations, crashes into his pride. Someone who strives to be the strongest there is, to have people look at him and know there's no way he can lose... How can he let those people see him as weak? How can the strongest be vulnerable? He has to be perfect, he can't let anyone down, including himself. No one relies on broken, weak, useless, vulnerable, to be their hero.
The shame and pain of having someone see him as those things... Bakugo hates it.
But over the year, he's matured in some of that. To the point where it's not the end of the world to talk about things. Rare, quiet, quick, and only with people he trusts enough to feel close to. His nightmares and guilt are mostly his own, his to deal with and resolve without help. But now he's allowing himself the reality that help isn't so bad.
It takes strength to admit you need help.]
don't give up even after you've saved everyone and done it all. you're worth saving too. even from yourself.
i know what you promised, but it doesn't have to end like that. cause i'm not giving up on you.
i'll listen. whenever you need it.
[And Yuji heard him out this time. Bakugo would only do this with someone he trusts intensely.]
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blastedass) wrote2020-08-08 04:37 pm
shakes you
It helps, to talk about things. In small doses, to limit his own exposure. He still has nightmares, he still feels divorced from reality sometimes, but it's getting better. It's improving, slowly but surely. Time and time again, it'll get better. ]
that's how i feel as well. i've got people i want to save, so i'm not going to give up until i know i've done it. that's my determination right now.
we're both going to be reliable people and we're gonna do our best. i know that. i believe in us, dandelion.
thanks. for hearing me out all the time.
is shooketh
The shame and pain of having someone see him as those things... Bakugo hates it.
But over the year, he's matured in some of that. To the point where it's not the end of the world to talk about things. Rare, quiet, quick, and only with people he trusts enough to feel close to. His nightmares and guilt are mostly his own, his to deal with and resolve without help. But now he's allowing himself the reality that help isn't so bad.
It takes strength to admit you need help.]
don't give up even after you've saved everyone and done it all. you're worth saving too. even from yourself.
i know what you promised, but it doesn't have to end like that. cause i'm not giving up on you.
i'll listen. whenever you need it.
[And Yuji heard him out this time. Bakugo would only do this with someone he trusts intensely.]
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so unwavering fist then
[ This chat got heavy fast... But he's not mad about it. He appreciates Bakugo all the more for it, and feels a warm place in his heart. ]
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But fine. He isn't going to chase after that. Had enough of the heavy stuff himself. Yuji knows.]
the number 2 hero, unwavering fist.
[Look, Aoyama's hero name is the "Shining Hero: Can't Stop Twinkling" so sure.]
you'll be a hell of a hero.
[He's glad to have been able to vent. Feels closer to Yuji even more now. That warmth inside... yeah. Shared.]
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no.2 because you'll be no.1 right?
it's on, dandelion. 💪
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damn right.
you want that spot, you'll have to beat me for it.
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