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Bakugō Katsuki ([personal profile] blastedass) wrote2020-08-08 04:37 pm

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Great Explosion Murder God Dynamight
CHARACTER NAME Katsuki Bakugō
CIVILIAN NAME Shōri Bakudan
TEAM EVERLIGHT 💥
HOUSING NUMBER 008
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[personal profile] eyescar 2024-10-31 08:32 pm (UTC)(link)
I don't know why I lost control. Choso tried to kill me, but...

[ Yuji shakes as he tries so, so hard to keep grip of his tears. ]

I should've been better. It was my responsibility.
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cw: suicide ideation

[personal profile] eyescar 2024-10-31 08:38 pm (UTC)(link)
I wish they'd have killed me then.

[ Yuji shakes his head. Does he wish that? He's not really sure, but it feels like something that's there, at the forefront of his mind. An easy thought, because he's so used to feeling it, so used to it being a presence in his mind. ]

I guess I had enough fingers... They could've put him down. The others... They'd have been safer.
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[personal profile] eyescar 2024-10-31 08:52 pm (UTC)(link)
No.

[ He knows what's going to happen.

Katsuki is going to do something to try and make him feel better, and it strikes him, suddenly.

He had told Nanamin that he wanted to live, now. It's not a lie - he does, he does want to live, to grow older and take care of his friends, but...

It's hard to remember that, right now. ]


They're not stupid.
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[personal profile] queenofkur 2024-11-01 11:55 am (UTC)(link)
Am I to understand you are only protective of friends you are in love with?

[ Not very nice of him!

Her opinion is becoming abysmal. Yet again, she's not helping this situation become better one bit. ]
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[personal profile] queenofkur 2024-11-02 12:51 am (UTC)(link)
[ He...

He definitely did call her stupid, didn't he? That overrides everything. ]


I shall not permit for you to talk to me with such words!
This is my final message.
You are fortunate I cannot strike you with divine punishment right this moment!
Never contact me again.
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[personal profile] eyescar 2024-11-03 11:02 pm (UTC)(link)
You know Gojo-sensei was the one who promised to kill me, right?

[ It's said petulantly, because Yuji knows the truth; Gojo-sensei was never going to kill him. He was going to find a way to save Yuji, so that they could all live happily in the future and find their own joy.

Funny how that worked out.

Sighing, he bites his lip, hard, before he focusses, still not really able to look over. ]


I'm so tired, Katsuki...
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[personal profile] eyescar 2024-11-03 11:21 pm (UTC)(link)
I wouldn't want you to do that, Katsuki. You've got enough to worry about.

[ Yuji's aware of enough of Katsuki's world to know they both have too much to deal with. They're just teenagers, but they're teenagers thrust into a world in which they can barely muster the strength to keep going sometimes. They're the ones that have to save their worlds, no matter what the cost might be to them personally.

It's hard not to draw the comparison to being a cog.

Sighing softly, he closes his eyes, tilting his head into the mat and gritting his teeth. ]


I didn't know you talked to Nanamin about that kind of stuff.
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[personal profile] eyescar 2024-11-04 09:45 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh.

[ Yuji leans back, sighing softly as he closes his eyes. To have Nanami back, to hear words about himself... From that man... He feels himself flooded with warmth and butterflies, but also a strange kind of grief. ]

I didn't mean to do that. I didn't want him to go and fight. Is it my fault, that he was down there in Shibuya? If... If I'd convinced him otherwise, or if I'd been faster to get to him, maybe Ieiri-san could've...

[ He chews on his lip. ]

Stupid to think about.
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[personal profile] eyescar 2024-11-04 11:02 pm (UTC)(link)
No, he... I...

[ Yuji stops. He pauses, and he turns his head, finally looking at Katsuki, eyes damp and clammy from his tears and his deep, painful well of sadness. It's hard, to open his eyes to the light again and think, but... ]

I don't remember... Did I tell you his last words?

[ The last things spoken by Nanami Kento in the living world, and Yuji Itadori was the witness to it. ]
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[personal profile] eyescar 2024-11-05 12:31 pm (UTC)(link)
‘You’ve got it from here’.

[ Heavy words, weren’t they? Yuji can’t really say whether or not they were fair words, but he’s starting to understand it a little better. Nanami wasn’t trying to curse him, wasn’t trying to make him feel bad, or regretful, or make him feel all that guilt and pain. It was passing the mantle and hoping Yuji could carry it: it was a sign of his faith in him, even after such a short time together.

It has taken him time to get it. Sniffling a little, Yuji wheezes out a little noise, a choked off laugh mixed with a sob. Nanami had cherished him, even back then, huh? ]


It took me a while… But he smiled at me, in the end. I remember him smiling, not what Mahito did to him, and… I made a promise. ‘I’ll carry your share of suffering too, Nanamin’.

[ Biting his lip, hard enough to draw blood, Yuji shudders. ]

I think… I don’t know if I can say how much he means to me.
Edited 2024-11-05 12:32 (UTC)
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[personal profile] grade4 2024-11-09 05:31 am (UTC)(link)
well, i'm used to living as a curse. a scorned child.
i'll get used to living with this too.
and make them pay for making me weak.


[ who is she talking about exactly? the kaiju, but also lilith. she just can't say it in a place they monitor. ]
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[personal profile] lunarchivist 2024-11-11 10:48 am (UTC)(link)
[There is something to be said about facing and talking about traumatic events with others. And sure Dan Heng was awkward about the message, but it was…it was kind of Bakugo, to acknowledge it as soon as he could. Just as he would have if the comms weren’t down. It was an acknowledgement of past pain and fears without being pitying. Support. Care. Needless to say it’s very appreciated.

But stuff like this is easier to handle at a later time. Likely the next day yes, since the dragon has been doing alot of sleeping lately. He’s being good and resting!! Mostly.
]

Really? That’s…that sounds frustrating. [It’s no wonder the hero trains so fervently…if his power levels were reduced so drastically…] My powers seem normal being here, but. It’s more of a…how should I put this…
My powers are more potent around the place I was born. The arbor waters respond readily to the call of the cloudhymns. I believe the sea is…still parted on the Xianzhou Luofu, even when I’m not there, solely because I wished it to be.
[((and totally not because the game needs that area to stay open for gameplay continuity reasons- I’m having it make as much sense as I can here lmaooo))]
My powers dampen away from my birthplace. Part of that had to do with the exile, and trying to stay hidden. Cloudhymn is easier to use around a body of water, but I can make do with imaginary energy when needed. That remains unchanged.

It was just…it was all gone, in the

In the castle. And it took some time to come back completely upon leaving. It was…frustrating.


[Hmm. The surgeries are turning out to be a divisive topic, Dan Heng is finding…oops.]

They don’t? But they offered anesthetic when explaining the procedure to me…I wasn’t aware this was not common. It’s…probably because of…the mission. [An apology of sorts…? If it’s rare, all the more reason to go through with it.] I wouldn’t go through with it if they didn’t offer that. I’d. Probably attack whoever was operating on me out of instinctual retaliation. [He'd bite them. He does not want to bite Doctor Spim.] It’s good to hear you’re working to solve that. Let me know if I can help in growing things.

…Also who is Shashou?
[It translates to train conductor…?? ...when did Pom-Pom make it here? ...Not likely to be Pom-Pom.

Poor Bakugo. On Dan Heng’s end, he’s always been regretful he didn’t inherit Dan Feng’s ability to heal. That went to Bailu, his little sister, in a strange power split he doesn't fully understand. In the end she serves as a doctor for the people, which is good, but…inheriting only the destructive capabilities of Dan Feng’s legacy always bothered the dragon more than he cared to admit….he doesn’t…trust LILITH very much, but he knows they have the desire to help, and that others have had successful surgeries like this. He’s already recovering from one thing, what’s another (no)? If it’ll help in the future...
]

…You’re right. It's pointless to dwell on. I should get more reading material or something. [Distractions. It’s part of why Dan Heng keeps wandering around. It’s too easy to fall into that sort of dread when idle.] I. Understand the sentiment, but please don’t use chains if you plan to keep people together during rest. [The thought still makes him cringe. Even if said in jest(?).

It is strange. Drugging is likely in this scenario, to keep the Outsiders unaware and unconscious, but Dan Heng knows for a fact some of the kidnapped people, like Loop, don’t eat. Perhaps it was influence of the kaiju itself… ((IE. I asked the mods and they said basically that with an ask to just roll with stuff jshdfhsd so uh. I will believe kaiju BS. But also can you imagine a cultist trying to grab say Denji and getting an attached Bakugo too? 2-for-1 deal, sucker!))

Dan Heng chuckles softly at the outburst there. That. That’s normal.
] Yeah. Agreed. [No one in their right mind would want to go through that. But it was a choice to get out, and he’s grateful to those who chose to rescue them.] Will do. You don’t have to go to that trouble, I’m not an idiot. It’s just…hard. To stay “resting”, laying around while others are struggling or grieving. I know it’s necessary. I know. It’s just difficult.
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[personal profile] grade4 2024-11-15 02:58 am (UTC)(link)
i don't know if we get a choice necessarily.
we're born with sorrows on our back passed down to us.
but i get what you mean.
i'll bounce back im just feeling like a piece of shit for now.