I didn't ask you to celebrate my birthday because I wanted to celebrate my birthday. The main thing I wanted coming into this has always been the same even now.
The nature of how I spend that time may look different but that doesn't make one form any less important than the other to me.
I didn't say that or think that...how I spend my birthday hasn't been that important to me since I was like five years old. That doesn't mean I don't care that I was born or that I think of myself as unimportant.
If it did, I could be here asking you about how important you think you are.
I AM important, dammit! If I didn't think that, I wouldn't be where I am today!
[Kidnapped in a strange world notwithstanding.]
I train, work, improve, everything I do is so I can become the greatest hero in the world! You think you can do that while thinking you're unimportant?
Even All Might considered himself important! Otherwise he wouldn't have wanted to become the Symbol of Peace to keep everyone's hopes alive!
[Technically the Symbol was the important part, but... All Might still had to be confident he could become that Symbol.]
Okay, so why are you insisting that I'm thinking I'm unimportant? I'm training and working and improving as well, and I'm telling you that like you, the specific nature of my birthday celebration doesn't matter to me as much as other things do.
Kacchan, you aren't hearing me. So, please listen.
Even if we did work, it would still be about me in that it would be exactly what I wanted to do that day. I asked you to spend my birthday with me largely because I just wanted you to spend the day with me.
I really don't care if we celebrate or if we go and explore, and that's honest. The end result is still what I wanted.
I want to do something together that you enjoy and don't look back on and dislike. That's what's important to me. That's the feeling I enjoyed so much on your birthday. Spending time together and enjoying it.
Honestly, I feel like I'm being selfish about it, but you seem to see selfishness as something else because we both value vastly different things sometimes.
[ For what it's worth, Izuku's main interest is indeed spending time with Katsuki that day and not sharing. He was excited for the birthday thing, but he'd also be fine exploring.
His main interest is Katsuki also enjoying it, and Katsuki is a lot pickier. ]
It is. And I don't like being told I'm thinking I'm not important when I'm in the middle of doing something I consider selfish.
[It's less about the preference and more about how it came off to Katsuki, but he's chalking the entire thing up to difference of opinion and not being able to communicate well to each other on certain things. That's always been one of their problems and it's not going away.]
We're not gonna agree on the matter; we got different opinions about what's selfish or important.
Drop it. We'll see what's happening on the 15th and go from there.
[ Izuku frowns at his phone. It's true they won't agree, but he feels dismissed and unseen. He's never been able to get across what he feels to Katsuki that easily, but to try to express it plainly and be told he was doing something else...
It's frustrating. It's always been frustrating - ever since they were kids Katsuki had the habit of doing that, and Izuku releases a sigh. ]
[It's true that Izuku explained it plainly, but what he described to Katsuki is how Katsuki describes something Izuku says it's not. Two people with two different definitions of the same item can't come to agreement outside of agree to disagree without one of them admitting the other's right and their definition is wrong.
Katsuki doesn't see how they're going to manage it with each other. So rather than continue to fight and yell, he dismisses the argument, not wanting to further break what should've stayed a more pleasant conversation.
Honestly, he's got no one to blame but himself for the eruption.]
[ Izuku doesn't mind whatever Katsuki's definition is. He just wanted enough respect that Katsuki would believe him that he didn't think something he didn't think. He didn't get that, and he's going to be disappointed about that for a while - it sucks to tell someone exactly how you feel and for them to tell you that isn't how you feel, but you feel another way, because of how they see the world. But that's been a component of their relationship since they were kids, and apology or not it isn't something Izuku really expected to change overnight. Katsuki has a habit of playing god, dictating exactly what Izuku's actions and emotions mean in the framework of how he expects the world to operate with no consideration for how Izuku feels about it or says about it, and Izuku comes away from the conversation somewhat regretting starting it. ]
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Date: 7/6/23 04:16 (UTC)The nature of how I spend that time may look different but that doesn't make one form any less important than the other to me.
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Date: 7/6/23 04:36 (UTC)Do you not care that you were even born?!
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Date: 7/6/23 04:43 (UTC)If it did, I could be here asking you about how important you think you are.
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Date: 7/6/23 04:56 (UTC)[Kidnapped in a strange world notwithstanding.]
I train, work, improve, everything I do is so I can become the greatest hero in the world! You think you can do that while thinking you're unimportant?
Even All Might considered himself important! Otherwise he wouldn't have wanted to become the Symbol of Peace to keep everyone's hopes alive!
[Technically the Symbol was the important part, but... All Might still had to be confident he could become that Symbol.]
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Date: 7/6/23 05:01 (UTC)no subject
Date: 7/6/23 05:06 (UTC)Because you were excited to celebrate your birthday! But when we talked about a bigger issue, you decided to fucking trash everything we planned on.
You weighed which of those was more important and decided you were unimportant! That wasn't even the fucking reason I brought that up!
Why else would you say "screw me, let's work instead"?!
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Date: 7/6/23 05:19 (UTC)no subject
Date: 7/6/23 05:31 (UTC)no subject
Date: 7/6/23 05:36 (UTC)Even if we did work, it would still be about me in that it would be exactly what I wanted to do that day. I asked you to spend my birthday with me largely because I just wanted you to spend the day with me.
I really don't care if we celebrate or if we go and explore, and that's honest. The end result is still what I wanted.
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Date: 7/6/23 05:52 (UTC)[There's no way he can make Izuku see it from his side and no way Izuku can make him see it the other way.]
Then we'll just do whatever on the 15th.
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Date: 7/6/23 05:56 (UTC)Honestly, I feel like I'm being selfish about it, but you seem to see selfishness as something else because we both value vastly different things sometimes.
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Date: 7/6/23 06:11 (UTC)I got it, Deku. Don't need another essay.
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Date: 7/6/23 06:14 (UTC)You're making it out like my request was selfless and making you more important, and that's just entirely wrong.
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Date: 7/6/23 06:21 (UTC)no subject
Date: 7/6/23 06:27 (UTC)Please trust me when I say that me wanting to monopolize you for a whole day is, by my definition, me being selfish. And reframe it from there.
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Date: 7/6/23 06:41 (UTC)That's your definition.
I'll think about what to do for that day.
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Date: 7/6/23 06:57 (UTC)His main interest is Katsuki also enjoying it, and Katsuki is a lot pickier. ]
It is. And I don't like being told I'm thinking I'm not important when I'm in the middle of doing something I consider selfish.
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Date: 7/6/23 21:21 (UTC)We're not gonna agree on the matter; we got different opinions about what's selfish or important.
Drop it. We'll see what's happening on the 15th and go from there.
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Date: 7/7/23 01:16 (UTC)It's frustrating. It's always been frustrating - ever since they were kids Katsuki had the habit of doing that, and Izuku releases a sigh. ]
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Date: 7/7/23 03:03 (UTC)Katsuki doesn't see how they're going to manage it with each other. So rather than continue to fight and yell, he dismisses the argument, not wanting to further break what should've stayed a more pleasant conversation.
Honestly, he's got no one to blame but himself for the eruption.]
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Date: 7/7/23 03:13 (UTC)