God, okay, that would definitely be hard. There is something in Izuku that cannot imagine the world without Katsuki in it. If this question had been the other way around - the hostage's arm, Katsuki's throat - or even if it was either or for life or death...
It's Katsuki every time.
An arm - even an arm he doesn't want to give up. Even now he wants to argue and say he could save them both. ]
The hostage.
[ If it's not Katsuki's life, he can do it. He thinks. ]
This is exactly what he's thinking about. It's probably why there's a divide between heroes who like to team up with other heroes and those who prefer to remain solo. To have bonds is a strength and a weakness, just like going at it by yourself.
Katsuki is well aware of Izuku's preferential treatment of him. He saw it in the training grounds, when the other boy refused treatment and came charging through the battlefield to... ugh, protect him. Even getting Tokoyami and Shoji wrapped up in it. All because he couldn't leave Katsuki well enough alone.
Results asides, the core issue remains.]
Easy to say.
[Yes, he doubts the answer. That's what that means.]
[ It would make it feel a little better if he could at all accuse Katsuki of having a similar weakness, but Izuku doesn't think that's the case. Latest chapters nonwithstanding, he's always had issues seeing himself as worthwhile to other people, while never having an issue in seeing the worth of others.
It's not pervasive in a way that makes him depressed or unsure precisely, but it's a blind spot he has yet to fix. ]
It's true that I can't imagine the world without you in it, Kacchan.
But I don't see that as a weakness. You're one of my biggest strengths.
[They've all seen Izuku acting like that before, throwing himself into the fray, heedless of the dangers, risking life and limb to protect someone he barely knows, if not a total stranger. But that's one of the duties of being a hero. To be ready to sacrifice their lives for the sake of those who can't protect themselves.
But sometimes Katsuki wonders if Deku has a fucking death wish or if the years of being told he's worthless and useless might have done way more psychological damage that Izuku's not willing to face. And yet, as the others in the class have shown, they're willing to protect Izuku as well, even from himself. They clearly see him as worthwhile. As many others do.
Katsuki, however, can't help but see the glaring flaw in the other hero's feelings. Such an exploitable weakness. Hell, HE'S able to take advantage of it himself, if he so wanted. Which he doesn't Ewugh.]
A strength is a weakness. Look at our Quirks. Almost everyone would call them our greatest strengths. But what the hell do you think would happen if we couldn't control them anymore?
Like that girl you rescued. Her biggest strength is her biggest weakness.
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Date: 10/4/20 22:34 (UTC)[He'll mercifully avoid the actual jugular, but he goes hard right off the bat.]
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Date: 10/4/20 22:38 (UTC)God, okay, that would definitely be hard. There is something in Izuku that cannot imagine the world without Katsuki in it. If this question had been the other way around - the hostage's arm, Katsuki's throat - or even if it was either or for life or death...
It's Katsuki every time.
An arm - even an arm he doesn't want to give up. Even now he wants to argue and say he could save them both. ]
The hostage.
[ If it's not Katsuki's life, he can do it. He thinks. ]
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Date: 10/4/20 22:45 (UTC)This is exactly what he's thinking about. It's probably why there's a divide between heroes who like to team up with other heroes and those who prefer to remain solo. To have bonds is a strength and a weakness, just like going at it by yourself.
Katsuki is well aware of Izuku's preferential treatment of him. He saw it in the training grounds, when the other boy refused treatment and came charging through the battlefield to... ugh, protect him. Even getting Tokoyami and Shoji wrapped up in it. All because he couldn't leave Katsuki well enough alone.
Results asides, the core issue remains.]
Easy to say.
[Yes, he doubts the answer. That's what that means.]
I'm one of your biggest weaknesses.
And it pissed me off.
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Date: 10/4/20 22:51 (UTC)It's not pervasive in a way that makes him depressed or unsure precisely, but it's a blind spot he has yet to fix. ]
It's true that I can't imagine the world without you in it, Kacchan.
But I don't see that as a weakness. You're one of my biggest strengths.
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Date: 10/4/20 23:24 (UTC)But sometimes Katsuki wonders if Deku has a fucking death wish
or if the years of being told he's worthless and useless might have done way more psychological damage that Izuku's not willing to face. And yet, as the others in the class have shown, they're willing to protect Izuku as well, even from himself. They clearly see him as worthwhile. As many others do.Katsuki, however, can't help but see the glaring flaw in the other hero's feelings. Such an exploitable weakness. Hell, HE'S able to take advantage of it himself, if he so wanted. Which he doesn't Ewugh.]
A strength is a weakness. Look at our Quirks. Almost everyone would call them our greatest strengths. But what the hell do you think would happen if we couldn't control them anymore?
Like that girl you rescued. Her biggest strength is her biggest weakness.
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Date: 10/4/20 23:35 (UTC)I think the best anyone can do is acknowledged their weaknesses and work on being stronger for them.
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Date: 10/5/20 00:02 (UTC)If someone gets to you because of me, I'm gonna be fucking livid. So DON'T let that happen.
Got it?
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Date: 10/5/20 00:11 (UTC)[ He can't promise he wouldn't die for Katsuki - wouldn't maybe kill for him - but he can promise to try to be careful. ]
You're really important to me, Kacchan.
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Date: 10/5/20 00:19 (UTC)Even though heroes are supposed to value all life, villains included, Katsuki's not naive enough to think life will always be so clean.
Someday, someone twisted enough is going to come along...]
Baka. I know that. But you need to know when to keep that in check.
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Date: 10/5/20 00:22 (UTC)no subject
Date: 10/5/20 00:49 (UTC)[This isn't some fucking joke or flippant consideration!]
I don't know my answer. I won't know unless I'm faced with that.
So I'd rather go the rest of my fucking life without knowing.
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Date: 10/5/20 00:55 (UTC)Same for me. If I can't sleep tonight because of nightmares about you dying, are you going to take responsibility?
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Date: 10/5/20 01:06 (UTC)...
[Is there even a way out of this?!]
Are you going to call me at 1 AM to pester me about insomnia?
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Date: 10/5/20 01:07 (UTC)no subject
Date: 10/5/20 01:13 (UTC)This isn't something you should have nightmares about.
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Date: 10/5/20 01:23 (UTC)no subject
Date: 10/5/20 01:45 (UTC)Ask Sparkles. He's right next to you.
[Don't go bothering other floors with your night terrors.]
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Date: 10/5/20 01:51 (UTC)Can I come visit you instead?
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Date: 10/5/20 02:08 (UTC)[You think he's grumpy in the mornings and you want to wake him up in the middle of the night?!]
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Date: 10/5/20 02:09 (UTC)Maybe.
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Date: 10/5/20 02:18 (UTC)["Sleeping"]
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Date: 10/5/20 02:20 (UTC)no subject
Date: 10/5/20 02:24 (UTC)[As has been the point of this section of the conversation.]
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Date: 10/5/20 02:26 (UTC)no subject
Date: 10/5/20 02:47 (UTC)It's just a nightmare. You're stronger than that crap.
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