[He stopped checking the list of names on the watch. Too many have disappeared over the past two months. People he knew, people he'd come to maybe give a little more than a shit about. After what happened at the end of August...
Fuck, why should he even bother? What's the point of reaching out, of making any kind of damn bond, if it can all be torn away or corrupted in a goddamn second? More hooks in the heart, more distractions to tie him down, more pain when shit goes wrong! He doesn't need to feel wretched holes punched in his stomach! Feel his guts give out when another name he knew blanks on the screen! This place wants them to play nice together, grow closer, then actively sabotages their efforts! Fuck, it's gonna drive him crazy!
And yet, he's pressing his thumb on the screen, staring at the display bloomed up in front of him like a glowing wallpaper. Lying on his side in his bed, as if it might make him feel better to at least know someone he knew hasn't vanished...
...yet.
Been a while since he's actually had contact with this guy. Someone like him wouldn't give a damn, right? Who comes, who stays, all of it's a pain. As if he buys that load of bullshit. He's good at deflection too.]
@ Great Explosion Murder God Dynamight
hey, have you been here from the start? this place is pissing me off.
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Early October
Date: 10/4/25 14:19 (UTC)Fuck, why should he even bother? What's the point of reaching out, of making any kind of damn bond, if it can all be torn away or corrupted in a goddamn second? More hooks in the heart, more distractions to tie him down, more pain when shit goes wrong! He doesn't need to feel wretched holes punched in his stomach! Feel his guts give out when another name he knew blanks on the screen! This place wants them to play nice together, grow closer, then actively sabotages their efforts! Fuck, it's gonna drive him crazy!
And yet, he's pressing his thumb on the screen, staring at the display bloomed up in front of him like a glowing wallpaper. Lying on his side in his bed, as if it might make him feel better to at least know someone he knew hasn't vanished...
...yet.
Been a while since he's actually had contact with this guy. Someone like him wouldn't give a damn, right? Who comes, who stays, all of it's a pain. As if he buys that load of bullshit. He's good at deflection too.]
@ Great Explosion Murder God Dynamight
hey, have you been here from the start?
this place is pissing me off.